Thoughts

I haven't blog for a long time.

Guess too much thoughts drove me to pen down a few things. Felt terribly overwhelmed at work today. Not that I want to pen down specifics but rather a general sense of the torrents of recurring tidal stress.

I long for rest. I long for this to be over. Have been working incessently for the past 3 years. And as the turn of stress approach its billowing heights, loud reminders of the need to fulfil my responsbilities keep echoing.

I write down some verses from Habakkuk 3:17-19

17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,

18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.

Though my situation seemingly look hopeless with the pressing deadline, with every day whizzing back, oozes away each ounce of remaining strength, the emotions draining and desperate, I wish for a silver lining...perhaps only a speck.

Yet that seem more distant than nearer.

And coupled with other thoughts that concerns the heart, I wonder why there is a prisms of problems arriving. Somethings I think this is self wrought but many thoughts and circumstances have arrived unnoticed, unprepared.

My recent trip to Malaysia though a short rest has brought new concerns. Not that I had invited it but it has.

I am in need of wisdom, much wisdom. Verses given in Habakkuk has given me understanding of the ways of God. I know my faith has been deeply wounded. Yet the healing and restoring power is never my own.

As in a pit of miry clay I am in now, I ask only for that divine help, to gain a dip into the still waters of God.

I ask. I seek and I wait. Which will come? None except that Christ provideds comfort.

How long? How long?

That longing of Christ hand. O that my Lord be found faithful. Somehow I know the reason why God is putting me thru all these except the dread and detestable thought I have, I wish for a sip again of that fountain of grace.

O God if you will allow to enter sooner than later, yet You will not relent till grace from you meets the comfort that is required.

A bruised reed, indeed, Thou will not break.

Change is sudden

That every breath is a sign of living.

Amazing it isn't it? The world still continues as it was. But change is sudden.
A passing shower of happiness can plummet into a sudden grip of grief. Nothing is steadfast on this earth. Change is everywhere and can be at any time.

Being human is fraility and fleeting. Wonder why ever our mind has no solace in its restlessness? Wonder why there is a longing for eternity and an answer.

Look at change and you wonder anything ever last?

I stand in awe of the universe so vast and distance, as I look into a cloudness sky and see the stars... I wonder what is out there?

I look at insurmountable problems of life and wonder what deliverance is all about? Just to overcome problems?

There is definitely eternity written in our hearts.

Ecclesiatis 3:11 says ,"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

I realise a reconciled heart and mind with an unfanthomable God is what brings solace and peace to the heart. That reconcilation is the marvel of God's grace and mercy.

Wonder does anything last? Yes there is. When you find that God is the eternity that should be in the heart of men. Only then is the peace that surpasses all understanding will rule and guard your heart in Christ Jesus...

A fountain of grace

I remembered going Merchant Court Hotel and had a buffet several years back. It was a huge chocolate fondue. It is massive. Alongside are sticks of marshmellows and strawberries. I remembered sticking the marshmellows in the overflowing liquid chocolate, and lacing it with the richness of the delicious chocolate, realishing the sight let alone the anitcipation of what is more inviting next. To eat it.



2 verses struck a chord when I remember this memories. James 5:11,"As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy." and 1 Pet 1:13"13Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed."

James speaks about preserverance under suffering. Peter writes about being holy and setting yourself apart for God, dedicating and consecreting.

I like both verses. They both speaks about our position in Christ. Full of 3 wonderious truth. We are bathing fully in the Lord's compassion, in His mercy and full of His grace. Therefore there can be delight in the fiercest of storm, in the most mystified of circumstances, in the waves of temptations that billows of pathways. We strive to perserve, to hold fast, to be holy because we are divine reciepients of God's grace, mercy and compassion that have an unending flow.

I do not mind being that strawberry though with a thorn, but still bathing in God's provision. What a thought. A sweet delight. I can set a banquet in the face of my enemies, that is what the Psalmist said in Psalm 23. Indeed. God is greater than any gods, His power never gets overturned, neither His affections, when He has set upon you before the foundation of this world.

My God, our Lord is good. Always and unchangeably so.

A Sea of Red....to be continued

What a night..the day that Liverpool FC came to Kallang ..and the sea of red..and the red kallang wave...My brother brought his SLR camera..so more pics to follow...mine is just handphone pictures...but it was truly a SEA OF RED...go Liverpool go...

Weather Change

Strange things have happened nowadays and more common. Weather is really hot.
I read in the papers that this is also the year of El Nino. And it would get worse.
Strange weather.

Doing research on agricultural production, I read more land getting more inarable, meaning, acute food shortage likely to arise in the next 30 years.

I read Matthew 24 just this morning. And I guess, woah...famine on a global scale is going to happen soon. Not Africa countries. But all over the world. Just in South East Asia alone, the padi fields would be badly affected due to rising sea level, more lands would be flooded and the the salt content of soil will also render these areas uncultivatable.

The fish in the world is also depleting at an alarming rate due to over-fishing. Animals are striken with diseases due to modern agricultural techniques of mono-pedigree cultivation.

Famine on a global scale haven't been witnessed. If we read the drastic climatic changes and the current mal-practice of modern agricultural teachniques (in contrast to God's prescribed farming teachinques), a global famine is not far away.

We have seen H1N1 as another testimony of global diseasae outbreak..a pestilence that Christ prophesied in Matthew 24...we haven't seen famine on a global level yet...with such fulfillment on the horizon, it is again another warning..time to be sober-minded. Ezra said, "look at the times" and Nehemiah says "look at the wall". Christians...look at this warning signs and use it as a sign of the end of the age. Be on your toes and point people to see these signs as evidence that what Christ says is true. But more than that, what He says, "He is the Saviour of the world". To a world that is only dying, the only hope is in Christ. Whatever Christ says will come to pass. He echoes these words, "Heaven and Earth will pass away, but the Word of God abides forever".

So abide in this promise of the only deliverer, Christ Jesus.

Goodwood Park Durian Pastries

Legendary durians discovery. Yamashita's gold is finally found...


This is one durian of a burger...called a durian puff for most of the time. :)







5 cm at the side and 8 cm in the centre of pure durian delight. This is no ordinary durian strudel, it shudders and bathe you into a sea of durian puree...

Frail is real

Tonight at BSF, we went through Leviticus. It is a book themed on the holiness of God. It strike deeply that God loves a moral upright, righteous people who adore and worship God.

The more I read the law, the more I realise we have grown to ignore, have not regard for God anymore.

In general, I think we have also distanced from reality. Take human existance being frail, we dun take it as real. Unless we face death, that thought is always distant.

I wonder how many of us are sober. I wonder.