Boldness

This is something I felt I am lacking. Had a prayer session with some good friends today under the pavilon in the park. Thank God for the session. The rain brought relief to an otherwise unusually hot afternoons this week.

Been keeping something close to the chest and wanting to say it. I can't say this is like what Jeremiah said, "there is fire in my bones."

When is wisdom to be frank and when not to? Didn't pray about this in front of my friends but strange as it is, it was obvious to me that I felt I am sure of some things that I must say.

There is something that I am absolute and certain of.

Yet the courage is not there for me to say it, even to sms it is difficult.

I thought I was always bold to be unapologetic.
But alas, at least for this thing, I am completely devoid of boldness.

Why is it so crippling? The fear of loss that is why? I wish God would instead do this job on my behalf, if He is willing.

Really do not know how to take the next step except by prayer.

Things are so changed. Wished I could make things so plain and simple.

Guess anyone who reads do not know what I am taking about.

If you do, I applaud your wisdom.

Yet, do not ignore providence.