Practical

Keep being told to be practical.

Is there anything wrong in being idealistic? Haha.

Yesterday was driving home and it was really late at night. Witness an accident right in front of my eyes. See one car filtering 3 lanes and drifting right into the car in front of me. Banged..gone. I jammed my brakes, and worried the car behind will slammed into my back.

I was on the speeding lane on CTE. Thankfully nothing happened. Thank God. I was still alert.

Anyway this incident tell me that in life, nothing will go smooth. Things do happen. Ideal or not. Being practical is only 1 means of viewing life. Yup, its logical and perhaps sensible but I feel no compulsion to do things that I should when I don't. I might be getting advanced in years but it should no be the reason why I should waiver and deviate what I have initially set out to holdfast to.

I need convictions. I need resolve. There is no reason not to wait and hope. The thing is that I must know I am really hoping in God.

Being pratical. Does that mean a lack of trust in God.

That is the greater dilenmma.

What a Night

its strange. but i think i know why.
i understand why.

after next week, i will put a stop. erractic it is.

flustered. sigh..but in life, things are simple and clear and its probably better u understand than try not to.

i know what it all means, just that i have not learnt to accept all that there is.

i heard once, I don't have to ask again.

The weight and the value of God

If I may pause just for that moment to consider and think that every life actions and thoughts boil down just to this.

The weight and the value of God. The root of our being. The core of our heart. Be it be bitterness or forgiveness. Be it be contemptment or contentment. Be it be frustration or trust. It all comes down to this. The weight and value of God.

I know for some of us. God is of no bearing neither one we are conscious at all. We are careless, irreverential and possibly of no desire to think, neither toward God, a person that we seek to please neither to glorify. We sought to love self and the things of the world. There are some who outward deny God but the more common are those who have a form of godliness but denying the power.

I have spoken to "believing" Christians as Christ has spoken to "believing" Jews in John 8. But as you speak the oracles of God or engage in life simplicity, you somehow get a an overwhelm character of a person who is pre-occupy with self rather than a penchant for the things of God.

I feel that is sad. I consider the weight and the value of God. Paul told Tim in 2 Tim 2:2 to impart truth to those that are faithful.

Perhaps I have done wrong. I wonder why studying of Romans 2 somehow has disturbed my settlement of sharing the word with all diligence. I hope it is simply God telling me something important. Abandonment is not a bad thing. Be focus on the faithful that God may see that His work gets done.

Why have an unconverted ministry where the faithful are neglected. It is far more important to see clay be moulded and moved then for the hardened to be shaped for unless they changed, they remain unconverted.

I consider this is grave and a thought that seriously need a sobering courage and prayer that only God can give that boldness.

Am I right or wrong. Only God can vindicate the path to take.

What's wrong?

When I read Romans 2 again and again and taught it twice to 2 groups of people, I realise what is true of the Jews is actually true for me and I believe for many.

The work of God's grace. The work of God's word would fluorish only in a heart that desires to love God.

I feel a deep unmovable hardening of heart of some. I wish I hadn't felt that. Because if that is true, then the words that echo from John the baptist, from Christ our Lord and Paul would be true. From brood of vipers, to an unbelieving generation to eventually James who called the Jewish believers adulterers, having a love for the world, that the Word of God has no more an effect on you.

What conclusion can I then make in light of scriptures. It is a frightening thought. It is.

How many are truly saved?

Conscience and morality?

God's word working in our heart? Or our heart are harden that we no longer respond to the word of God. If it is only hardening, then we are at best a unbelieving Jew.

Must I concede that is true? Who would have a zeal for thy house?

Or we just soothing our religious conscience.

God forbid this be true. But if it is, can we even be sober to repent? I dread to think one more second further. God help!

A petal or rose

Macro or micro. Strumming or plucking.
Life has many many decisions to make. Many.

The heart has many persuasions. You would perhaps not make any decisions because being ruffled isnt the best thought. Change is always resisted. Resistance also stop change.

Decisions and more decisions. Looking at a rose petal is nice. Looking at a rose is also nice. Our view however are often limited.

I like to think God's view are above ours. And he knows every outcome of a man who love His heart, love the beauty that awaits all of us.

He has the rose. A garden panoroma of it.

I just need to trust Him to take my next step.