John 14:27, "27 Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
As the crucification draws near, Jesus said to His disciples that He would be going away from them The disiciples was troubled. I believed they love Jesus. A departure of Christ wouldn't do for them. No doubt they didn't watch and pray with Jesus but they still love Jesus. Their hearts love Jesus. That is the essence of a Christian.
A love for Christ and Christ knew that. So He speaks words of comfort to the disciples that He will give them peace. Not from the World but from Jesus, Himself. From the God of the universe. That my friend is fortitude in the fort of Jesus. Jesus told the disciples that He would soon be glorified by going back to the Father. He says that to encourage their hearts. I think the heart of this message is Jesus is saying that He will leave this troubled world and return to the Father who dwells in peace. I believe Christ wants the disciple to look at a hope of absolute deliverance.
And the disciples would have peace because they love Jesus and they would love the hope of meeting Christ one day.
I hope all of us are reminded that the ultimate goal of any Christian is that he must love Christ above all else. We can't say we love Christ and not obey His commandments. We can't say we are doing God's will when we can't even say we love Christ. The most basic of Christianity is to love Christ.
Only when a heart is fully after Jesus, it wouldn't be afraid coz Jesus is fully yours and you are fully His.
My friend, seek for such a love for God. I promise by the promise of God, that there will be a supernatural peace that will guard your heart from the viles of the world and that is glad because you know in your own heart, you are loved by Jesus and you love Jesus.
Make that a conviction that will carry you through the new year.
Amen
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Heavenly Host
Today the road to the Christmas Musical has ended.
It has been months and months of preparation. As the curtains draws, I did feel a sense of relief yet there is also a deep gratefulness to God for wonderfully using this musical to give the message of His sacrificial love. Yet at the same time, I felt it was a most wonderous time of worship. The musicians and choir gave I believe a glimpse of how the heavenly host of angels would be singing and some day all of us would also be part of that choir host singing majestic melodious melody.
I also thanked God that so many of the campus family could serve in this musical and for Gail, Jonathan Tan and Andrew helped in unseen ways. I believe each one of them had enjoyed themselves thoroughly.
I believe many has heard the gospel today. I do hope by the grace of God, they would truly come to the saving knowledge of Christ. And that also brings the heavenly host to sing.
Hearing the music being played out and the cast enjoyed their time, it was a testimony again of how God's people doing God's work can have the joy of the Lord. It has been tiring, yet, I believe the smile of God is on the faces of those who desire to worhsip Jesus.
Amen.
It has been months and months of preparation. As the curtains draws, I did feel a sense of relief yet there is also a deep gratefulness to God for wonderfully using this musical to give the message of His sacrificial love. Yet at the same time, I felt it was a most wonderous time of worship. The musicians and choir gave I believe a glimpse of how the heavenly host of angels would be singing and some day all of us would also be part of that choir host singing majestic melodious melody.
I also thanked God that so many of the campus family could serve in this musical and for Gail, Jonathan Tan and Andrew helped in unseen ways. I believe each one of them had enjoyed themselves thoroughly.
I believe many has heard the gospel today. I do hope by the grace of God, they would truly come to the saving knowledge of Christ. And that also brings the heavenly host to sing.
Hearing the music being played out and the cast enjoyed their time, it was a testimony again of how God's people doing God's work can have the joy of the Lord. It has been tiring, yet, I believe the smile of God is on the faces of those who desire to worhsip Jesus.
Amen.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Christmas
I had hope that one day I can spend Christmas, perhaps in Switzerland, in a wooden cottage in the middle of the woods, and in the wooden cottage, a nice warm fuzzy fire place. And beside that wooden cottage would be a lake, which is frozen and when the sun set, the shadow of the sun would look enchanting.
But it is nothing like the first Christmas when Christ was born. He was in lowly manger, perhaps that night it was cold. But that is how our humble king, Jesus Christ came into this world.
Yet I am most amazed about this. That His coming gave us love. There is no greater love for God to be born as a man destined to go to the cross to die for our sin. A birth meant for the cross. But this one GREAT act of dying on the cross brings life to all who would believe in Him.
The fireplace might seemingly give us physical warmth. But what is more needful is the spiritual light and warmth that Jesus can bring to every soul who trust Him for the forgiveness of their sin and receive Him as Lord and Saviour. This gift abides forever and is the true and everlasting joy He can bring for all Christmas.
Joy to the World, how apt is this Christmas Song. Joy to the World, the Lord is come :)
Deliverance
My colleagues love to order takeaway from Pizza Hut and KFC now and then in the office. And when the food comes, we rejoice coz it was with anticipation that we waited for the food.
There are somethings we anticipates for but yet it is not answer [delivered]. I think in the same manner as the takeway order, we desire deliverance, yet when it doesn't come yet, I hope we anticipate a deliverance that brings greater joy.
I learn a lesson today. And it is going to be a needful prayer. But I anticipate it to happen coz it is amazing that while I should feel terribly discouraged, I realised that meditation on the excellencies of God, His great deliverance shall be the greatest delivery of the greatest gift.
God will glorify Himself again and again. I can't explain the exact mechanics of how things will happen but one thing I know that through scriptures, God is faithful and He will do it.
Help me God to now thrust towards that.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, But when the desire comes, it is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12
There are somethings we anticipates for but yet it is not answer [delivered]. I think in the same manner as the takeway order, we desire deliverance, yet when it doesn't come yet, I hope we anticipate a deliverance that brings greater joy.
I learn a lesson today. And it is going to be a needful prayer. But I anticipate it to happen coz it is amazing that while I should feel terribly discouraged, I realised that meditation on the excellencies of God, His great deliverance shall be the greatest delivery of the greatest gift.
God will glorify Himself again and again. I can't explain the exact mechanics of how things will happen but one thing I know that through scriptures, God is faithful and He will do it.
Help me God to now thrust towards that.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, But when the desire comes, it is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Part I...to be continued..
A man asked himself, "Why do I live?" And he heard from within "Because you are not dead yet."
The man then asked, "Why am I am not dead?" And he answered, "Beacuse I am alive."
The man then asked, "Why am I am not dead?" And he answered, "Beacuse I am alive."
Monday, December 15, 2008
When circumstances doesn't allow
It can be frustrating when one event after another comes on top of one another. It can be distressing when one email after another doesn't bring good news.
It can be disheartening when people also misunderstand.
In the midst of all these, I begin to realise what it means that circumstantial happiness is transient.
Somehow I realise that my mind has to be narrowly and attentively focus on God.
Things may assail me but God is with me.
That thought has kept comforting me throughout.
And I also realise one very vital importance that will always keep me joyful. Remember to do the work of the Lord and do things in such a way that will advance God's kingdom. That will count.
In the midst of business, let me not forget, His work still takes priority and His grace will be ever sufficient. Faith takes a fresh meaning. Wisdom from God takes a more needy request.
This is joy eternal in God dependence.
It can be disheartening when people also misunderstand.
In the midst of all these, I begin to realise what it means that circumstantial happiness is transient.
Somehow I realise that my mind has to be narrowly and attentively focus on God.
Things may assail me but God is with me.
That thought has kept comforting me throughout.
And I also realise one very vital importance that will always keep me joyful. Remember to do the work of the Lord and do things in such a way that will advance God's kingdom. That will count.
In the midst of business, let me not forget, His work still takes priority and His grace will be ever sufficient. Faith takes a fresh meaning. Wisdom from God takes a more needy request.
This is joy eternal in God dependence.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
The City of Tears
Luke 2:10,"Then the angel said to them, Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings fo great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of Daivd is a Savior, who is Christ the Lord."
Eternal joy in God can only be fully known in death.
Yet it seems death is harsh and cruel and it can be so sudden. Jesus wept at death.
Great joy comes only to those who know the Saviour. Death has no sting. While it seems harsh and cruel, still the comforting truth, great joy abound and awaits those who trust in Christ.
The City of this world abound in tears for death is a certain route all must take but so is all who are in Christ, who only in death, will meet the Lord in joy.
Christmas made this possible.
Eternal joy in God can only be fully known in death.
Yet it seems death is harsh and cruel and it can be so sudden. Jesus wept at death.
Great joy comes only to those who know the Saviour. Death has no sting. While it seems harsh and cruel, still the comforting truth, great joy abound and awaits those who trust in Christ.
The City of this world abound in tears for death is a certain route all must take but so is all who are in Christ, who only in death, will meet the Lord in joy.
Christmas made this possible.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
The bench
When I took up a pen and there made a first contact onto the paper, I began to write...
When I strike the first string on the guitar, there I began to pluck...
When I see the giver of life, I call Him as my Saviour..
In life there are many beginnings...it is worth the wait if it ends up in bringing comfort to your soul...
It all begins with the cross...
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Journey to the West...Malaysia
It was a lovely 8am morning, except for the rain...yet it was nice just to unwind the stresses away, driving up the nice cosy highway of peninsula malaysia.
Thank God for the day...driving through scenic rainy road at having a nice shower, except the car kept us dry.
It took 2.5hr to reach Tampin, met JonT at the toll and he led us to Gail's house. Gail's house is very nice and I called it a kampung house to her disapproval. To me, anything that is in the countryside is kampung. Sorry Gail, I am swakoo. Met Gail's dad and sister. Her house is warm and cosy ..and interestingly different from Singapore...have fruit trees and loads of greenery outside....
Our mission was to try some of the local delights. JonT was guide for the day. Tampin didn't had much to try so we decided to head to the nearby Seremban town. Gail's dad gave him some useful advice. And we head to try the "Yong Tau Foo". Huge and larger than life ones...Singapore ones really are small and miserable in comparison. RM0.70 per piece. Super cheap considering the size. When we reached there...the "Yong Tau Foo" was running low...JonT asked how many pieces we wanted...We were all famished...He suggested 15 but was pushed eventually to 30 pieces. We didn't ate proportional to the number of people and I guess size do matters...haha There were 2 kinds that were served...in soup and fried..both taste good coz the fish paste is fresh...any fresher it would be a live fish...
Gail tucking away....her smile says a thousand slurps...
Next we went to check out the "Siew Bao" Turn out they were not ready. We tried the pineapple tarts instead. Wow nice. Packed with pinepapple puree. Really packed. Got 10...haha and also packed 10 "Siew Bao." Siew Bao is fried "Char Siew Bao". JonT said there is another nicer confectionary that sell this. We got it as well, later...another 20..JonT got some kaya bao also...and tasked me to bring back to Singapore to pass to Andrew...so touching...
Then we went to try the "teochew muey". JonT said it is a bit similar to the one we had in Singapore in Henderson except it taste better. Indeed the steamed minced pork is nice..comes with chestnut bits...it was simple yet appetising.
JonT gives his thumbs up.
The journey back from Seremban to Tampin...the fog hovering the nearby hills were enchanting..took this from the car window, JonT took over the wheels...
We then head back to Tampin. We met up with Gail's dad and he suggested we have dinner at a nearby restaurant. Our stomach was quite full but he reasoned that it was 2 hrs since we last eat, the capacity should be back. We gave hesistant answers yet still went .... When the food came, so did our appetite miraculously returned. Assam curry groupa, cereal bean curd, rojak chicken, kailan....each is fabulous...my plan of leaving at 7pm evaporated as each dish gave extra reason to slow down our biting motion...
The dinner before our journey home. It was very nice. The rojak chicken is superb...so is the Assam garoupa and ya..everything else...haha
And eventually it was time to leave, the fellowship with food makes it hard to say goodbye. Gail's dad foot the bill at restaurant..Thanks uncle..it was delicious. Indeed we had a great time at Tampin and Seremban. Malaysia sure had its hidden treasure.
We left at 7.50pm instead. The journey home was interesting. Jam along the highway...7 accidents in all. We saw that many in one night and reached the 2nd link only at 10.30pm. In between, had to pump petrol coz the start stop exhausted more petrol than calculated but the queue at the gas station also leaves one's heart pumping...eventually we reached checkpt at 10.30pm and endure an AMAZING 4hr wait at 2nd link..the queue of cars covered 1/2 the 2nd link...it is that bad....
Patience won its day but the memory of good company and good food leaves one heart (and stomach) a more lasting memory.
There is a mysterious voice that says, "We must be back."
Thank God for a good day of rest nevertheless and good discovery.
Thank Gail and JonT...for being wonderful hosts :)
Too bad my handphone memory low..or else would have taken many more scenery pics...oh well, the melody of the food still rings loud and clear... :)
Thank God for the day...driving through scenic rainy road at having a nice shower, except the car kept us dry.
It took 2.5hr to reach Tampin, met JonT at the toll and he led us to Gail's house. Gail's house is very nice and I called it a kampung house to her disapproval. To me, anything that is in the countryside is kampung. Sorry Gail, I am swakoo. Met Gail's dad and sister. Her house is warm and cosy ..and interestingly different from Singapore...have fruit trees and loads of greenery outside....
Our mission was to try some of the local delights. JonT was guide for the day. Tampin didn't had much to try so we decided to head to the nearby Seremban town. Gail's dad gave him some useful advice. And we head to try the "Yong Tau Foo". Huge and larger than life ones...Singapore ones really are small and miserable in comparison. RM0.70 per piece. Super cheap considering the size. When we reached there...the "Yong Tau Foo" was running low...JonT asked how many pieces we wanted...We were all famished...He suggested 15 but was pushed eventually to 30 pieces. We didn't ate proportional to the number of people and I guess size do matters...haha There were 2 kinds that were served...in soup and fried..both taste good coz the fish paste is fresh...any fresher it would be a live fish...
Gail tucking away....her smile says a thousand slurps...
Next we went to check out the "Siew Bao" Turn out they were not ready. We tried the pineapple tarts instead. Wow nice. Packed with pinepapple puree. Really packed. Got 10...haha and also packed 10 "Siew Bao." Siew Bao is fried "Char Siew Bao". JonT said there is another nicer confectionary that sell this. We got it as well, later...another 20..JonT got some kaya bao also...and tasked me to bring back to Singapore to pass to Andrew...so touching...
Then we went to try the "teochew muey". JonT said it is a bit similar to the one we had in Singapore in Henderson except it taste better. Indeed the steamed minced pork is nice..comes with chestnut bits...it was simple yet appetising.
JonT gives his thumbs up.
The journey back from Seremban to Tampin...the fog hovering the nearby hills were enchanting..took this from the car window, JonT took over the wheels...
We then head back to Tampin. We met up with Gail's dad and he suggested we have dinner at a nearby restaurant. Our stomach was quite full but he reasoned that it was 2 hrs since we last eat, the capacity should be back. We gave hesistant answers yet still went .... When the food came, so did our appetite miraculously returned. Assam curry groupa, cereal bean curd, rojak chicken, kailan....each is fabulous...my plan of leaving at 7pm evaporated as each dish gave extra reason to slow down our biting motion...
The dinner before our journey home. It was very nice. The rojak chicken is superb...so is the Assam garoupa and ya..everything else...haha
And eventually it was time to leave, the fellowship with food makes it hard to say goodbye. Gail's dad foot the bill at restaurant..Thanks uncle..it was delicious. Indeed we had a great time at Tampin and Seremban. Malaysia sure had its hidden treasure.
We left at 7.50pm instead. The journey home was interesting. Jam along the highway...7 accidents in all. We saw that many in one night and reached the 2nd link only at 10.30pm. In between, had to pump petrol coz the start stop exhausted more petrol than calculated but the queue at the gas station also leaves one's heart pumping...eventually we reached checkpt at 10.30pm and endure an AMAZING 4hr wait at 2nd link..the queue of cars covered 1/2 the 2nd link...it is that bad....
Patience won its day but the memory of good company and good food leaves one heart (and stomach) a more lasting memory.
There is a mysterious voice that says, "We must be back."
Thank God for a good day of rest nevertheless and good discovery.
Thank Gail and JonT...for being wonderful hosts :)
Too bad my handphone memory low..or else would have taken many more scenery pics...oh well, the melody of the food still rings loud and clear... :)
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Saturation
Been reading Philippians again and again and again and again. Finally I think I realise what John MacArthur says..read the same passage on and on and on till you know the whole text..till it recycles in your mind, till you meditate it day and night.
And that is what I have done for 3 weeks now. Eating and drinking Philippians. The amazing thing is the verses in Philippians keep popping up my mind and I keep thinking about the text again and again.
It is really helpful. Really. I never thought deep and hard of a verse, a passage. And the whole context of the passage.
Indeed it is blessed. So blessed. That I can't describe the insights that was given. And the life and hearbeat of Paul becomes illuminating and a call to emulate. Paul says "imitate me and so imitate Christ."
It has been a rewarding endeavour.
Thank God.
And that is what I have done for 3 weeks now. Eating and drinking Philippians. The amazing thing is the verses in Philippians keep popping up my mind and I keep thinking about the text again and again.
It is really helpful. Really. I never thought deep and hard of a verse, a passage. And the whole context of the passage.
Indeed it is blessed. So blessed. That I can't describe the insights that was given. And the life and hearbeat of Paul becomes illuminating and a call to emulate. Paul says "imitate me and so imitate Christ."
It has been a rewarding endeavour.
Thank God.
Friday, December 5, 2008
1 min
1 min before I pass on from this world.
What would my conscience say about my life?
1 min before I see Christ, what song will I sing, or will I sing any?
1 min....
Or do I have that 1 min?
What would my conscience say about my life?
1 min before I see Christ, what song will I sing, or will I sing any?
1 min....
Or do I have that 1 min?
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
God gave grace to those who pierced Him
10 “And I will pour on the house of David and on the inhabitants of Jerusalem the Spirit of grace and supplication; then they will look on Me whom they pierced. Yes, they will mourn for Him as one mourns for his only son, and grieve for Him as one grieves for a firstborn. Zechariah 12:10
God is abundantly gracious to murderers.
Whatever that may assail one, remember the grace of God is abundant to the chief of sinners.
This thought has gave me great comfort. The look to Christ, is the gift of the Spirit of Grace.
God is love and in that love cometh grace.
This knowledge has held me and is still holding me.
God gave grace to those who pierced Him. Imagine that.
God is abundantly gracious to murderers.
Whatever that may assail one, remember the grace of God is abundant to the chief of sinners.
This thought has gave me great comfort. The look to Christ, is the gift of the Spirit of Grace.
God is love and in that love cometh grace.
This knowledge has held me and is still holding me.
God gave grace to those who pierced Him. Imagine that.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
The Lord is everything
Command those who are rich in this present age not to be haughty, nor to trust in uncertain riches but in the living God, who gives us richly all things to enjoy. 1 Tim 6:17
Consider what I say, and may the Lord give you understanding in all things.
2 Tim 2:7
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom but the fear of men is a snare.
God is the centre of everything. How we really know life, to have a life to its fullest joy and satisfaction still it is when we trust in the living God. The giver and source who gives us richly all things to enjoy. God is a never a killjoy. And God is a giver of real joy.
Consider what I say, and my the Lord give you understanding in all things.
How to we live this life? Read 2 Tim 2:7 again and again.
Everything is of the Lord. Let your mind be renewed by the Lord. Consider what I say...Consider..The Lord is everything.
Let us seek understanding from the Lord and He will give you understanding. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.(c.f. James 1:5)
Real purposeful living is purposed in God.
Consider what I say, and may the Lord give you understanding in all things.
2 Tim 2:7
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom but the fear of men is a snare.
God is the centre of everything. How we really know life, to have a life to its fullest joy and satisfaction still it is when we trust in the living God. The giver and source who gives us richly all things to enjoy. God is a never a killjoy. And God is a giver of real joy.
Consider what I say, and my the Lord give you understanding in all things.
How to we live this life? Read 2 Tim 2:7 again and again.
Everything is of the Lord. Let your mind be renewed by the Lord. Consider what I say...Consider..The Lord is everything.
Let us seek understanding from the Lord and He will give you understanding. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.(c.f. James 1:5)
Real purposeful living is purposed in God.
Monday, December 1, 2008
A melody..A song
When would light be light?
When it breaks darkness.
How would the love of God shine?
When our pathway seems the bleakest...
John Bunyan said this before in his book "Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners" that he who is down can only go up.
The pathway to Christ crucification is anything but bright, is anything but victorious, is anything but overcoming.
Yet in death, He gave victory.
How would a voice praise God glorify Him? When it is not possible to praise God, yet you will praise Him.
Somehow at this time of feeling intense pulse of life deep burdens, I can somehow see God's abiding presence.
I could only thank God for this grace.
When it breaks darkness.
How would the love of God shine?
When our pathway seems the bleakest...
John Bunyan said this before in his book "Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners" that he who is down can only go up.
The pathway to Christ crucification is anything but bright, is anything but victorious, is anything but overcoming.
Yet in death, He gave victory.
How would a voice praise God glorify Him? When it is not possible to praise God, yet you will praise Him.
Somehow at this time of feeling intense pulse of life deep burdens, I can somehow see God's abiding presence.
I could only thank God for this grace.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Nearer and Stiller
The awakening soul. The soul that has gone hungry will go on being filled.
When I read of John Piper sharing of his church member, Irene Peterson, a 100 year old lady who on her 100th birthday says these poetic words,
Trust Him when dark days assail thee,
Trust Him when your faith is small,
Trust Him when to only trust Him,
Is the hardest thing of all.
I was held in a grace ransom. A ransom not paid by me. Not even a penny. A ransom God paid on the cross.
Nearer and stiller. When I wonder at the cross that stood on Calvary is God. A God who willing hang on the cross, perhaps I never sat under that Cross and wonder why God would want us to love Him as Irene Peterson said, is the hardest thing of all like in the trust of God, I have not understood the magnitude of God's love.
Divine love. The holiness of God has placed His goodness as awe. I look at Micah 7:18-20 which reads
18 Who is a God like You, Pardoning iniquity And passing over the transgression of the remnant of His heritage? He does not retain His anger forever, Because He delights in mercy. 19 He will again have compassion on us, And will subdue our iniquities. You will cast all our[g] sins Into the depths of the sea. 20 You will give truth to Jacob And mercy to Abraham, Which You have sworn to our fathers from days of old.
And then I remember John Piper sharing of the faithfulness of his longest living church member, I see a testimony of God's covenantal faithfulness.
I have not dwell deep into God's grace yet. I have not dwell deep in the pillow of God's grace yet. My eyes are so weak. My love for God is so weak.
Nearer and stiller my soul needs to walk. Nearer and stiller, my heart must sing. The goodness of my God is abundant in mercy, oh His pardoning grace, His delight in mercy and not anger, His willingness to give compassion..oh how I wish I could write Him a song on this, that my heart may keep on rejoicing in Him till the end of my life that I will sing of His mercies.
There is a glory of God I have not seen but I want to see.
My God, You are a beautiful Saviour. Jesus, the morning flower that blooms forever. Stay my heart in worship, I have been rude to God's love. Help me never to be.
When I read of John Piper sharing of his church member, Irene Peterson, a 100 year old lady who on her 100th birthday says these poetic words,
Trust Him when dark days assail thee,
Trust Him when your faith is small,
Trust Him when to only trust Him,
Is the hardest thing of all.
I was held in a grace ransom. A ransom not paid by me. Not even a penny. A ransom God paid on the cross.
Nearer and stiller. When I wonder at the cross that stood on Calvary is God. A God who willing hang on the cross, perhaps I never sat under that Cross and wonder why God would want us to love Him as Irene Peterson said, is the hardest thing of all like in the trust of God, I have not understood the magnitude of God's love.
Divine love. The holiness of God has placed His goodness as awe. I look at Micah 7:18-20 which reads
18 Who is a God like You, Pardoning iniquity And passing over the transgression of the remnant of His heritage? He does not retain His anger forever, Because He delights in mercy. 19 He will again have compassion on us, And will subdue our iniquities. You will cast all our[g] sins Into the depths of the sea. 20 You will give truth to Jacob And mercy to Abraham, Which You have sworn to our fathers from days of old.
And then I remember John Piper sharing of the faithfulness of his longest living church member, I see a testimony of God's covenantal faithfulness.
I have not dwell deep into God's grace yet. I have not dwell deep in the pillow of God's grace yet. My eyes are so weak. My love for God is so weak.
Nearer and stiller my soul needs to walk. Nearer and stiller, my heart must sing. The goodness of my God is abundant in mercy, oh His pardoning grace, His delight in mercy and not anger, His willingness to give compassion..oh how I wish I could write Him a song on this, that my heart may keep on rejoicing in Him till the end of my life that I will sing of His mercies.
There is a glory of God I have not seen but I want to see.
My God, You are a beautiful Saviour. Jesus, the morning flower that blooms forever. Stay my heart in worship, I have been rude to God's love. Help me never to be.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Who Moves?
I know I can't move God
But if I say this, God move me to move Him.
So is this true?
I believe it is. Coz God's will is perfect and is right. Nothing outside of Him move His Will which is formed out of His own good purpose and will.
God is eternally satisfying and fulfilling in of His own existence.
I realise that I can't never, in this life and in a sense in the life to come never fanthom the ways of God. His ways will always be past finding out. Yet in Psalm 103, God says to Moses He want His ways to be found out by His children.
It is just so settling to read these words. God wants His ways to be made known to His children. He doesn't want us to be in darkness but rather in His marvellous light. He has given us everything pertaining to life and godliness.
This week has been severely disappointing. But as God has spoken and He still speaks, I believe He has a plan and purpose for all these. If His ways is to be made know, I must and believe He will let me know His ways clearly as my mind and heart can understand. His way is perfect.
Prayer has never been richer this week and never longer this week. Because a desire to know the mind of God, reading scriptures has propelled me to ask God to make His ways known deeply and more experientialy.
I may read the words of scriptures but Christ is the Word.
Help me to see You, Lord.
But if I say this, God move me to move Him.
So is this true?
I believe it is. Coz God's will is perfect and is right. Nothing outside of Him move His Will which is formed out of His own good purpose and will.
God is eternally satisfying and fulfilling in of His own existence.
I realise that I can't never, in this life and in a sense in the life to come never fanthom the ways of God. His ways will always be past finding out. Yet in Psalm 103, God says to Moses He want His ways to be found out by His children.
It is just so settling to read these words. God wants His ways to be made known to His children. He doesn't want us to be in darkness but rather in His marvellous light. He has given us everything pertaining to life and godliness.
This week has been severely disappointing. But as God has spoken and He still speaks, I believe He has a plan and purpose for all these. If His ways is to be made know, I must and believe He will let me know His ways clearly as my mind and heart can understand. His way is perfect.
Prayer has never been richer this week and never longer this week. Because a desire to know the mind of God, reading scriptures has propelled me to ask God to make His ways known deeply and more experientialy.
I may read the words of scriptures but Christ is the Word.
Help me to see You, Lord.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Grace Above
Without difficulties how is it to trust God?
That is the paradox but that is also the truth.
I am glad that after search of the heart and remembering who God is, it is just thankfulness that I can offer God.
Somehow the mystery of how God works is that He works perfectly and sovereignly over all life circumstances. Doesn't matter what comes about. Alas I am so Peter who walked on stormy seas.
But then again, Christ teaches me to look and walk.
And often I like to think also this way, my issues aint big. God let me not be stifled in my love for you, my trust in you. There is a greater harshness and a greater blessing I can experience so that my eyes be fixed on you that I can see and hear You all the days of my life.
That is the paradox but that is also the truth.
I am glad that after search of the heart and remembering who God is, it is just thankfulness that I can offer God.
Somehow the mystery of how God works is that He works perfectly and sovereignly over all life circumstances. Doesn't matter what comes about. Alas I am so Peter who walked on stormy seas.
But then again, Christ teaches me to look and walk.
And often I like to think also this way, my issues aint big. God let me not be stifled in my love for you, my trust in you. There is a greater harshness and a greater blessing I can experience so that my eyes be fixed on you that I can see and hear You all the days of my life.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Regrets
Felt a weight of regrets today.
Felt life being so real.
Felt the draught of time drafting away so fast.
Felt parched in a desert without end.
Finding an oasis so distant and far.
A war to wage so helpless.
A wave so huge so helpless.
A whimper so soft so weak.
A wager so diffcult so weary.
Anguish and agonising.
I need that rest and I find it nowhere.
Till I told God all this so, He says He knows it all and
the song that says His eye is on the sparrow
breathes in my heart a breadth of renewed hope.
Hope thou in Me for I have yet to praise thee.
David's cries is the beginning of David's hope in God.
He is yet to praise but he knows he will praise Him.
I long for that to come.
Felt life being so real.
Felt the draught of time drafting away so fast.
Felt parched in a desert without end.
Finding an oasis so distant and far.
A war to wage so helpless.
A wave so huge so helpless.
A whimper so soft so weak.
A wager so diffcult so weary.
Anguish and agonising.
I need that rest and I find it nowhere.
Till I told God all this so, He says He knows it all and
the song that says His eye is on the sparrow
breathes in my heart a breadth of renewed hope.
Hope thou in Me for I have yet to praise thee.
David's cries is the beginning of David's hope in God.
He is yet to praise but he knows he will praise Him.
I long for that to come.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Lord, I believe
Today was a very tiring day. The battle rages on every day. And sometimes when you keep doing the same thing every day for the past coming to 7 years, you get a sense of tireness and routineness and boredom.
There is a certain dread, definitely.
I remember reading Ecclesiastes and found the word vanity many many times. Nothing new under the sun.
But Solomon made a remark at the end of his life, he says fear God and keep His commandments For this is man's all. For God will bring every work into judgement. Including every secret thing, Whether good or evil.
John Piper said the same, that we have only one life and only what is done for Christ will last.
Somehow I can't quite find my work in my current job aligned to this. While the work has given the daily manna, and I thank God for that and the blessed priviledge to give, yet in the longing of my heart is something deeper and strangely different.
I still dunno how to put it, but I believe to believe that there must a stronger desire for me to move.
I pray that day may come soon but only in God's timing once I be able to see His Hand and know His Hand.
At the end of life, I hope I would find the satisfying gladness of hearing my Lord say to me "Well, done thou and faithful servent, enter into Thy presence."
That it be gladness and not regret.
There is a certain dread, definitely.
I remember reading Ecclesiastes and found the word vanity many many times. Nothing new under the sun.
But Solomon made a remark at the end of his life, he says fear God and keep His commandments For this is man's all. For God will bring every work into judgement. Including every secret thing, Whether good or evil.
John Piper said the same, that we have only one life and only what is done for Christ will last.
Somehow I can't quite find my work in my current job aligned to this. While the work has given the daily manna, and I thank God for that and the blessed priviledge to give, yet in the longing of my heart is something deeper and strangely different.
I still dunno how to put it, but I believe to believe that there must a stronger desire for me to move.
I pray that day may come soon but only in God's timing once I be able to see His Hand and know His Hand.
At the end of life, I hope I would find the satisfying gladness of hearing my Lord say to me "Well, done thou and faithful servent, enter into Thy presence."
That it be gladness and not regret.
Monday, November 3, 2008
心中的一面镜子
喜怒哀乐。
好突然。凌晨四点，从床上奔起。
心中有首曲。就这样花了半个小时，把曲写下，然后录下来，也下了一些歌词。
可是因为太晚了，好困好困，心有力而力不足。
写了那么一点就去睡了。
隔天在下午时，听了一遍，感受曲的感觉。
有悲哀的沉重。有懊丧的心情。
我发现自己不断写的歌，往往偏向忧愁。
小时候一直听王杰的歌。
也许这是“后遗症？”HaHa。 也许不是。
自己的经历也是有悲伤的一面。
也有过失。也有挫折。也有后悔。也有藏在心里，不敢说的话语。
所以，自然的。在写曲时，也变成我心中的一面镜子。
好突然。凌晨四点，从床上奔起。
心中有首曲。就这样花了半个小时，把曲写下，然后录下来，也下了一些歌词。
可是因为太晚了，好困好困，心有力而力不足。
写了那么一点就去睡了。
隔天在下午时，听了一遍，感受曲的感觉。
有悲哀的沉重。有懊丧的心情。
我发现自己不断写的歌，往往偏向忧愁。
小时候一直听王杰的歌。
也许这是“后遗症？”HaHa。 也许不是。
自己的经历也是有悲伤的一面。
也有过失。也有挫折。也有后悔。也有藏在心里，不敢说的话语。
所以，自然的。在写曲时，也变成我心中的一面镜子。
Monday, October 27, 2008
Psalm 121
Psalm 121
A Song of Ascents.
1 I will lift up my eyes to the hills—
From whence comes my help?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade at your right hand.
6 The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD shall preserve you from all evil;
He shall preserve your soul.
8 The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.
A Psalm of God's greatness. A Psalm of God;s keeping. A Psalm of God's infinite strength. A Psalm of a God who keeps us has the power to keep everything that He creator. A Psalm that says the Creator keeps us.
A God above excellencies, a God above majesty, a God above power, a God above every creation, a God above heaven, a God above earth keeps us.
This thought stagnates my mind but yet bring a depth so deep, no man can measure, only God can His love for us. An eternity of His presence and abiding with us.
This Psalm can bring fortitude to your soul if you grasp the depth of God's love for us. It transcends the physical. Not even time, space, and matter can seperate this love. There has never been a second of neglect, God says. Eternity, my friend began not by our definition. God is above eternity. But that is how God has loved us. It is a transdescendent love. Mine mine....
What a marvelous Psalm. And I can only express this. Glory, glory, glory to this form of Divine love, highest and all too great for me to fully understand.
And so I can only say this, I worship you, O God. Alone I see, alone I adore. What a marvelous thought.
My Saviour's love for me says Glory because only the love of God is perfect.
Glory indeed.
Amen
A Song of Ascents.
1 I will lift up my eyes to the hills—
From whence comes my help?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade at your right hand.
6 The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD shall preserve you from all evil;
He shall preserve your soul.
8 The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.
A Psalm of God's greatness. A Psalm of God;s keeping. A Psalm of God's infinite strength. A Psalm of a God who keeps us has the power to keep everything that He creator. A Psalm that says the Creator keeps us.
A God above excellencies, a God above majesty, a God above power, a God above every creation, a God above heaven, a God above earth keeps us.
This thought stagnates my mind but yet bring a depth so deep, no man can measure, only God can His love for us. An eternity of His presence and abiding with us.
This Psalm can bring fortitude to your soul if you grasp the depth of God's love for us. It transcends the physical. Not even time, space, and matter can seperate this love. There has never been a second of neglect, God says. Eternity, my friend began not by our definition. God is above eternity. But that is how God has loved us. It is a transdescendent love. Mine mine....
What a marvelous Psalm. And I can only express this. Glory, glory, glory to this form of Divine love, highest and all too great for me to fully understand.
And so I can only say this, I worship you, O God. Alone I see, alone I adore. What a marvelous thought.
My Saviour's love for me says Glory because only the love of God is perfect.
Glory indeed.
Amen
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Break
The more you work, the more you feel you need breaks.
I am planning for a long trip to US next year. Alone. Haha. That is what I enjoy doing. But would be staying with a friend.
Next year I would be given 28 days leave, up from 21 days. I realise that the more you work, the more experience you get, the more responsbilities you get, the more headache moments you get.
The 28 days certainly is welcome but would I have the chance of using all? Hence I thought if I do not plan for a break, I would never get a break.
Hence the March trip. I may make another US trip in October next year. But this is not confirmed.
Breaks are good and needful. Especially after long stretch of intense work.
Glad to have plan for this trip. The excitment is, I would be attending a conference, not work conference but the shepherd's conference, a Christian gathering of church leaders and workers. This conference seeks to steer ministry workers what the bible laid out as clear instructions on how to have God-centred, bible-based ministeries. I gone for one 4 years ago. Think it is a apt time for me to go and also meet up with a good old friend...
Hopeful this door would be opened.
Praying for a cheap US bound ticket though..haha..
I am planning for a long trip to US next year. Alone. Haha. That is what I enjoy doing. But would be staying with a friend.
Next year I would be given 28 days leave, up from 21 days. I realise that the more you work, the more experience you get, the more responsbilities you get, the more headache moments you get.
The 28 days certainly is welcome but would I have the chance of using all? Hence I thought if I do not plan for a break, I would never get a break.
Hence the March trip. I may make another US trip in October next year. But this is not confirmed.
Breaks are good and needful. Especially after long stretch of intense work.
Glad to have plan for this trip. The excitment is, I would be attending a conference, not work conference but the shepherd's conference, a Christian gathering of church leaders and workers. This conference seeks to steer ministry workers what the bible laid out as clear instructions on how to have God-centred, bible-based ministeries. I gone for one 4 years ago. Think it is a apt time for me to go and also meet up with a good old friend...
Hopeful this door would be opened.
Praying for a cheap US bound ticket though..haha..
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Thank God
It felt a ton of bricks just fell when I open my car boot. My bag and laptop was not in sight.
Then it dawn on me..could I have left it in SCGS? Oh NOOOO...
I rushed back to scgs and on the way praying that God would allow me to find my laptop and my bag....both contain very important stuff...especially the laptop has all the arranged songs and recordings. It would be a real travesty if it was lost.
The journey back to SCGS seems so far..so distant. What was a 10 min journey seems like eternity. With my mouth constantly muttering, "God, please, please please..."
When I reached SCGS, the gate was closed. I parked my car and honkied...nobody responded. I parked my car by the gate and went to the other side and thankfully it was unlocked. I found my bag on the bench but no laptop was in sight.
I looked frantically for the security guard and told him about my laptop. He said he did not see any and began searching around with me. We searched for a while. I called Uncle Ivan to ask him to check GLCC in Dunearn Rd, just in case someone brought it there. He called back..the answer was No. I called Anne to ask for Deacon Alvin hp..he was the last to leave SCGS. No long after next, the security guard shouted for me. He said he found the laptop in the dustbin. Sure it was my laptop. I switched it on but realised it was locked. Apparently somebody tried to log in without avail. Thankfully it was password protected. My laptop bag was nowhere in sight. Inside has my earphone, God is the Gospel DVD, Don't waste your life DVD and my favourite guitar ensemble Christian song CD...
The security guard asked whether I could prove it was mine. I thought long and hard and said..got NUS domain..here is my matric card...my NRIC..this laptop is definitely mine. He wasn't convinced. Then I realised I have campus pics with me inside....So I said see I am inside the laptop..that is a picture of me. He looked at me and said..ok, here is your laptop. I tried to look for my bag and the guard grew a bit impatient..and said, "time for me to knock off" I search the dustbin, but it was too big and too deep. My conclusion is that somebody must have found my laptop inside the bag and tried to log in. Failing which he could have taken the bag and threw away my laptop. This is because my laptop was found frozen and it is due too many failed password log in attempts.
I lost my bag but found my laptop. Haha..answered prayer. Though felt a sense of loss coz the DVDs were John Piper material and my favorite CD, I recovered the most important thing. The christmas musical....Wah..what a relief. What a relief.
And thank God for campus. The picture of campus convinced the security guard, that this is my laptop. Thank God for photography. Thank God. Best birthday ever. :)
Then it dawn on me..could I have left it in SCGS? Oh NOOOO...
I rushed back to scgs and on the way praying that God would allow me to find my laptop and my bag....both contain very important stuff...especially the laptop has all the arranged songs and recordings. It would be a real travesty if it was lost.
The journey back to SCGS seems so far..so distant. What was a 10 min journey seems like eternity. With my mouth constantly muttering, "God, please, please please..."
When I reached SCGS, the gate was closed. I parked my car and honkied...nobody responded. I parked my car by the gate and went to the other side and thankfully it was unlocked. I found my bag on the bench but no laptop was in sight.
I looked frantically for the security guard and told him about my laptop. He said he did not see any and began searching around with me. We searched for a while. I called Uncle Ivan to ask him to check GLCC in Dunearn Rd, just in case someone brought it there. He called back..the answer was No. I called Anne to ask for Deacon Alvin hp..he was the last to leave SCGS. No long after next, the security guard shouted for me. He said he found the laptop in the dustbin. Sure it was my laptop. I switched it on but realised it was locked. Apparently somebody tried to log in without avail. Thankfully it was password protected. My laptop bag was nowhere in sight. Inside has my earphone, God is the Gospel DVD, Don't waste your life DVD and my favourite guitar ensemble Christian song CD...
The security guard asked whether I could prove it was mine. I thought long and hard and said..got NUS domain..here is my matric card...my NRIC..this laptop is definitely mine. He wasn't convinced. Then I realised I have campus pics with me inside....So I said see I am inside the laptop..that is a picture of me. He looked at me and said..ok, here is your laptop. I tried to look for my bag and the guard grew a bit impatient..and said, "time for me to knock off" I search the dustbin, but it was too big and too deep. My conclusion is that somebody must have found my laptop inside the bag and tried to log in. Failing which he could have taken the bag and threw away my laptop. This is because my laptop was found frozen and it is due too many failed password log in attempts.
I lost my bag but found my laptop. Haha..answered prayer. Though felt a sense of loss coz the DVDs were John Piper material and my favorite CD, I recovered the most important thing. The christmas musical....Wah..what a relief. What a relief.
And thank God for campus. The picture of campus convinced the security guard, that this is my laptop. Thank God for photography. Thank God. Best birthday ever. :)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Re-arranged Song
The rise of hope with a death. The resurrection of Chirst when it all seems death has cast a downcast spell. All seems dark and bleak. All seems lost.
Till the grave gave way to life. Christ was risen. Christ reigns. He rules. He is King. His conquest over death. He has claimed His victory.
What a triumphant feel. What a glorious joy.
That what I felt when I heard the arranged score for "Greatest Love".
Thank God.
Till the grave gave way to life. Christ was risen. Christ reigns. He rules. He is King. His conquest over death. He has claimed His victory.
What a triumphant feel. What a glorious joy.
That what I felt when I heard the arranged score for "Greatest Love".
Thank God.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
A companion
Held you through the good times and bad times.
Melody that has captured the heart that walked through this 2 years.
A lane of memories. Thank God for this companion.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Wholy consecreted for the Lord.
Wholy consecreted for the Lord.
Romans 12:1-2 has the answer.
So what does it mean?
Christ came to die for the Father's glory.
Romans 12:1-2 has the answer.
So what does it mean?
Christ came to die for the Father's glory.
A day gone by
Got sabo by my colleague. She was supposed to go for this company dinner..not me...but got replaced and had to have a gastronomical experience. The food was not bad especially the prawn and ya this HUGE red garoupa. Taken a picture below.
Really felt it tonight. Belt went tight. Real tight. Thought it wasn't a sabo. But now felt again..it is. Haha
Finally spend some time finishing the song. Glad it is done. Very glad. Very nice tune I feel. Might change the song title but still in deliberation.
Hope I can get to bed tonight. Really had too much. Still a bit of time before bedtime.
Still had some issues at my workplace. Hopeful that by the grace of God, things would be sorted out. By isn't that everything in life. Been thinking a fair bit of gleaning things on God's perspective. And weaning self away from its own gratifications to begin to think how God would desire in every circumstances. Strange but am thinking more towards this. Hopeful I would understand clearly how this can be achieved.
Another day soon to pass...
Really felt it tonight. Belt went tight. Real tight. Thought it wasn't a sabo. But now felt again..it is. Haha
Finally spend some time finishing the song. Glad it is done. Very glad. Very nice tune I feel. Might change the song title but still in deliberation.
Hope I can get to bed tonight. Really had too much. Still a bit of time before bedtime.
Still had some issues at my workplace. Hopeful that by the grace of God, things would be sorted out. By isn't that everything in life. Been thinking a fair bit of gleaning things on God's perspective. And weaning self away from its own gratifications to begin to think how God would desire in every circumstances. Strange but am thinking more towards this. Hopeful I would understand clearly how this can be achieved.
Another day soon to pass...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
《告诉妳》
心血来潮。感触级多。
又动笔了，写下了四分之三的歌词。
完结段还有多三句就应该是大功告成。
Chorus 的曲还未肯定。
大致上， 非常满意曲的感觉。
这一次觉得写了最靠近心里要表达的话语。包括曲在内。
好盼望能快快完成。
这首歌名为《告诉妳》。
真的是一首告知心情的歌。
又动笔了，写下了四分之三的歌词。
完结段还有多三句就应该是大功告成。
Chorus 的曲还未肯定。
大致上， 非常满意曲的感觉。
这一次觉得写了最靠近心里要表达的话语。包括曲在内。
好盼望能快快完成。
这首歌名为《告诉妳》。
真的是一首告知心情的歌。
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
Coincidence???
Strange how things unfold.
Can't help but believe that God is putting me through a test. Yet I dun want to think it is, as though I am the centre of His attention per se.
A very difficult episode with a person two years ago.
And now I get to meet the person all over again. Not that I am angry with the person but just it is a very difficult episode of my life that I want to lay to rest.
It can't be coincident coz the circumstances how we met again is definitely has no human logic.
I stood stunned for a moment.
Dunno how to react and still do not know.
You na meh qiao. And it is not going to be a one time encounter. It is going to be regular and persistently. Wah.
Impossible. How God might unfold this? Is there something I must learn? Is there something God is leading towards. Wah. I dunno leh. What a challenge...It is strange but God moves in mysterious way.
hmmm..hmm..and still hmmmm...and still hmm till God makes it clear.
Wah..wah..wah..
Can't help but believe that God is putting me through a test. Yet I dun want to think it is, as though I am the centre of His attention per se.
A very difficult episode with a person two years ago.
And now I get to meet the person all over again. Not that I am angry with the person but just it is a very difficult episode of my life that I want to lay to rest.
It can't be coincident coz the circumstances how we met again is definitely has no human logic.
I stood stunned for a moment.
Dunno how to react and still do not know.
You na meh qiao. And it is not going to be a one time encounter. It is going to be regular and persistently. Wah.
Impossible. How God might unfold this? Is there something I must learn? Is there something God is leading towards. Wah. I dunno leh. What a challenge...It is strange but God moves in mysterious way.
hmmm..hmm..and still hmmmm...and still hmm till God makes it clear.
Wah..wah..wah..
Monday, October 6, 2008
Deadline and not dateline
Crazy argument. But I am convinced that deadline is the right spelling to mean the timeline given to finish a task. Dictionary.com agree. Have to go through some lengths just to state this point.
Truth never fails.
Yesterday was quite taken aback. Rev Stephen Tong annouced that he would no longer preach in Singapore on a regular basis after he completes the gospel of John. I think in part, from what he said, Singapore Christians are lukewarm, I feel. He constrasts to the Indonesians back home. He also expressed his desire to spend more time with his own congregation back home. His church people are the sheeps that God has ordained to pastor and he felt that it is right that He focus more time with them. Indeed.
But if what Rev Stephen Tong said about Singaporean is true, it is indeed sad. There is no doubt that Rev Stephen Tong preaching is simple yet insighful. God has gifted this man. He is ordained I believed strongly by God to preach with indudated power on High.
I told myself I will follow through his exposition through the gospel of John. John's gospel is my favourite gospel and even last night, when Rev Tong shared on the background on the gospel of John, it was simply illuminating. I believe even if I spend months reading, I would not have grasp what he said in one hour.
It was a great blessing. Except this time round, the deadline is drawing nearer than before.
God has decided to move this man away from Singapore. The deadline draws near every passing day.
But thanks be to God who had given through this man much. For to whom much is given, much more is required. Thank God.
Truth never fails.
Yesterday was quite taken aback. Rev Stephen Tong annouced that he would no longer preach in Singapore on a regular basis after he completes the gospel of John. I think in part, from what he said, Singapore Christians are lukewarm, I feel. He constrasts to the Indonesians back home. He also expressed his desire to spend more time with his own congregation back home. His church people are the sheeps that God has ordained to pastor and he felt that it is right that He focus more time with them. Indeed.
But if what Rev Stephen Tong said about Singaporean is true, it is indeed sad. There is no doubt that Rev Stephen Tong preaching is simple yet insighful. God has gifted this man. He is ordained I believed strongly by God to preach with indudated power on High.
I told myself I will follow through his exposition through the gospel of John. John's gospel is my favourite gospel and even last night, when Rev Tong shared on the background on the gospel of John, it was simply illuminating. I believe even if I spend months reading, I would not have grasp what he said in one hour.
It was a great blessing. Except this time round, the deadline is drawing nearer than before.
God has decided to move this man away from Singapore. The deadline draws near every passing day.
But thanks be to God who had given through this man much. For to whom much is given, much more is required. Thank God.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
不知天高地厚
武侠小说有说过这一番话，“天下之大却没有我容生之处。”
甚么可以让一个人这样沮丧？
我自以为我终于明白，因为以为曾经承受过这种滋味。
可是我现在认为是过敏的反应。
天与地，高和低， 就像人生经验，还未足呢。
甚么可以让一个人这样沮丧？
我自以为我终于明白，因为以为曾经承受过这种滋味。
可是我现在认为是过敏的反应。
天与地，高和低， 就像人生经验，还未足呢。
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Today
Woke up later than usual today. Stayed up too late last night.Did my quiet time and then begin the day.
Had a good time of prayer I think coz today not working,can dun hurry my prayer...Did alot of reflections and just baring my heart out towards God on certain things...and I am just glad in a way while the situation will still remain, I know I am having a fellowship with God in the midst of the things that do trouble now and then. Well there is a call to trust and a call to depend.
Sometimes I hadn't thank God enough for the blessing of the difficulties I am going through at this point. No big things I always say. But enough to get me very frustrated at times. By what it does is amazingly good, that it tuned my heart with hardly any moment that I am not conscious of God. Perhaps when I am asleep.
Went to Kukup again today. Really like this place. So tranquil. Nice drive up. Cruise control. Very scenic view around the drive. Did take some pictures of kukup again and thought I post a few to describe what I meant. Not there primarily for the food, though good, I enjoy the scenery much better....tranquil laid back illage..kelong....no hustle but rustle...could sit down, drink chrysamethum tea....and look at the gentle rolling back and forth...
Walked the streets and got some fisheries products...
Then came back to Singapore in the afternoon..hyper long queue at Customs but thankfully....manage to clear it in under 2hrs, it was stressful coz a lot of cars were cutting the queue. The police did intervene...but only later..
Went back to the office after the trip to clear a bit of work that was plugged out as I was on training for 2 days. Finished what I wanted to do in 2 hours. Then met up with Jon to arrange a song for the Christmas Musical. It is a sad tune.
This tune was composed earlier this year. It is a little similar to another sad tune I wrote last year, for last year musical. I know what circumstances and situation that drove my heart towards humming such a tune, so listening to it while working on it will always drive back some thoughts..can't be helped. Perhaps it is difficult sometimes to be made to remember, but nevertheless without feelings and emotions in memories, or in encounters, how could a touchy tune be ever composed? God has made man to be rich in emotions. Well it has to be ruled. Proverbs said that a man who cannot rule his emotions is that a city without its gates. That is correct. often I realise I could be vulnerable except that now I learn to thank God more than to let myself delve further. Hence I thank God for this tune and it could be used for the musical, how wonderful... :)
Everything is in control under God. No matter how and what I think of feel, it remains as such. To react to it would mean that I am responding to whatever that may not be true and noble. Emotions alone cannot direct life. Only truth can...hence I remind myself that.., and God has the heart of truth. Only Him is absolute. It leans me to trust Him. Not always..unless I think like that.
Well it has been a long day again. Now at night. I can't help but thank God. Will end with prayer and to rest, to see another day of God's working and goodness.
Night...
Had a good time of prayer I think coz today not working,can dun hurry my prayer...Did alot of reflections and just baring my heart out towards God on certain things...and I am just glad in a way while the situation will still remain, I know I am having a fellowship with God in the midst of the things that do trouble now and then. Well there is a call to trust and a call to depend.
Sometimes I hadn't thank God enough for the blessing of the difficulties I am going through at this point. No big things I always say. But enough to get me very frustrated at times. By what it does is amazingly good, that it tuned my heart with hardly any moment that I am not conscious of God. Perhaps when I am asleep.
Went to Kukup again today. Really like this place. So tranquil. Nice drive up. Cruise control. Very scenic view around the drive. Did take some pictures of kukup again and thought I post a few to describe what I meant. Not there primarily for the food, though good, I enjoy the scenery much better....tranquil laid back illage..kelong....no hustle but rustle...could sit down, drink chrysamethum tea....and look at the gentle rolling back and forth...
Walked the streets and got some fisheries products...
Then came back to Singapore in the afternoon..hyper long queue at Customs but thankfully....manage to clear it in under 2hrs, it was stressful coz a lot of cars were cutting the queue. The police did intervene...but only later..
Went back to the office after the trip to clear a bit of work that was plugged out as I was on training for 2 days. Finished what I wanted to do in 2 hours. Then met up with Jon to arrange a song for the Christmas Musical. It is a sad tune.
This tune was composed earlier this year. It is a little similar to another sad tune I wrote last year, for last year musical. I know what circumstances and situation that drove my heart towards humming such a tune, so listening to it while working on it will always drive back some thoughts..can't be helped. Perhaps it is difficult sometimes to be made to remember, but nevertheless without feelings and emotions in memories, or in encounters, how could a touchy tune be ever composed? God has made man to be rich in emotions. Well it has to be ruled. Proverbs said that a man who cannot rule his emotions is that a city without its gates. That is correct. often I realise I could be vulnerable except that now I learn to thank God more than to let myself delve further. Hence I thank God for this tune and it could be used for the musical, how wonderful... :)
Everything is in control under God. No matter how and what I think of feel, it remains as such. To react to it would mean that I am responding to whatever that may not be true and noble. Emotions alone cannot direct life. Only truth can...hence I remind myself that.., and God has the heart of truth. Only Him is absolute. It leans me to trust Him. Not always..unless I think like that.
Well it has been a long day again. Now at night. I can't help but thank God. Will end with prayer and to rest, to see another day of God's working and goodness.
Night...
Monday, September 29, 2008
Courage
Finally said certain today in the office to which I would otherwise not have said.
At least it is a load off my mind.
Can at least said I am happier.
I began to be more clear on my future directions already. For that I must Thank God tremendousbly. It is taking shape more.
Took out my guitar again and strum...got a short tune this time round. Guess it reflect how I am thinking right now..got it recorded down again as another snippet tune, perhaps to be used again next time.
It is 12:43am. Time to sleep..and I am feeling very sleepy. This has indeed been a long day. I dunno whether when I read this post again, I will remember the things that happened today. It has been eventful. I spoke to a friend today online and said that today felt like there was a ton of brick that fell.
Ya...Perhaps I have over weigh the magnitude of the problem but it was indeed how I felt at that moment. I think I am speaking in parables.
I realise I am more melanchonic as I age. The things I wrote when I am in my teenage years, my young adults are drastically different. So different.
When I am young, I write things more imaginative and more chirpy. When I was a young adult, I begin to write things that reflective on incidences. Now I have entered the 3rd decade of my life, well, I am more mellowed. I think there is a sense of both reflective and pragmatism in the way I think and write.
Well, time to sleep. Great is Thy faithfulness, morning by morning new mercies I see, all I have needed, Thou has provided, Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me. These was said by Jerimiah 3000 years ago. I hope I say that in the morning and praise my God.
Goodnight.
At least it is a load off my mind.
Can at least said I am happier.
I began to be more clear on my future directions already. For that I must Thank God tremendousbly. It is taking shape more.
Took out my guitar again and strum...got a short tune this time round. Guess it reflect how I am thinking right now..got it recorded down again as another snippet tune, perhaps to be used again next time.
It is 12:43am. Time to sleep..and I am feeling very sleepy. This has indeed been a long day. I dunno whether when I read this post again, I will remember the things that happened today. It has been eventful. I spoke to a friend today online and said that today felt like there was a ton of brick that fell.
Ya...Perhaps I have over weigh the magnitude of the problem but it was indeed how I felt at that moment. I think I am speaking in parables.
I realise I am more melanchonic as I age. The things I wrote when I am in my teenage years, my young adults are drastically different. So different.
When I am young, I write things more imaginative and more chirpy. When I was a young adult, I begin to write things that reflective on incidences. Now I have entered the 3rd decade of my life, well, I am more mellowed. I think there is a sense of both reflective and pragmatism in the way I think and write.
Well, time to sleep. Great is Thy faithfulness, morning by morning new mercies I see, all I have needed, Thou has provided, Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me. These was said by Jerimiah 3000 years ago. I hope I say that in the morning and praise my God.
Goodnight.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Ponder
There are times when you begin to really think hard about life final destiny.
At work, there are some things I am pondering about. Some form of enticement are coming. But it is not these I find my heart having any affinity towards.
In a way, there is a tug to seems to wean me away from all these. I really hope to put down my work and then starts life afresh with a new endeavour.
I am doing well at my work but why such restlessness, I ask?
This week has been quite a week, given the turmoil with some unfavourable news that came through. Yet the amazing thing is, God gave the grace for me to find peace and settlement in Him, even though I had initially difficulty but I believe because of how God has led in time past, there is a quiet confidence.
Much has happened and more will come. Perhaps the greatest hunger anyone is to strive to accompllish in life, is to find joy in satisfaction with one's life. No man gets comforted by things at his bedside at his time of death. Ultimately, it is his eternal destiny that he must come to grip. I realise that the one thing that really comforts is a God that loves ...and that forgiveness in His mercy, puts divine lifting of sin weight down to weightlessness would perhaps be the most realest comfort when I lie in my deathbed and realising the desinty of my soul is to return to the God that made me yet will recieve me into His everlasting abode because of Him who slayed His son. I cannot imagine. I cannot exalt anything else any higher except God. Christ in all in all. What love is that? Divine.
The one thing, the one act that affirms this would be my life must be lived in such a way that it would truly glorify God.
I need His grace to fulfil that.
Give me the highest humility that I might fulfil that. God this is what I ask. You.
At work, there are some things I am pondering about. Some form of enticement are coming. But it is not these I find my heart having any affinity towards.
In a way, there is a tug to seems to wean me away from all these. I really hope to put down my work and then starts life afresh with a new endeavour.
I am doing well at my work but why such restlessness, I ask?
This week has been quite a week, given the turmoil with some unfavourable news that came through. Yet the amazing thing is, God gave the grace for me to find peace and settlement in Him, even though I had initially difficulty but I believe because of how God has led in time past, there is a quiet confidence.
Much has happened and more will come. Perhaps the greatest hunger anyone is to strive to accompllish in life, is to find joy in satisfaction with one's life. No man gets comforted by things at his bedside at his time of death. Ultimately, it is his eternal destiny that he must come to grip. I realise that the one thing that really comforts is a God that loves ...and that forgiveness in His mercy, puts divine lifting of sin weight down to weightlessness would perhaps be the most realest comfort when I lie in my deathbed and realising the desinty of my soul is to return to the God that made me yet will recieve me into His everlasting abode because of Him who slayed His son. I cannot imagine. I cannot exalt anything else any higher except God. Christ in all in all. What love is that? Divine.
The one thing, the one act that affirms this would be my life must be lived in such a way that it would truly glorify God.
I need His grace to fulfil that.
Give me the highest humility that I might fulfil that. God this is what I ask. You.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
The way of the world
Luke 16:1-13
The Parable of the Unjust Steward
1 He also said to His disciples: “There was a certain rich man who had a steward, and an accusation was brought to him that this man was wasting his goods. 2 So he called him and said to him, ‘What is this I hear about you? Give an account of your stewardship, for you can no longer be steward.’
3 “Then the steward said within himself, ‘What shall I do? For my master is taking the stewardship away from me. I cannot dig; I am ashamed to beg. 4 I have resolved what to do, that when I am put out of the stewardship, they may receive me into their houses.’
5 “So he called every one of his master’s debtors to him, and said to the first, ‘How much do you owe my master?’ 6 And he said, ‘A hundred measures[a] of oil.’ So he said to him, ‘Take your bill, and sit down quickly and write fifty.’ 7 Then he said to another, ‘And how much do you owe?’ So he said, ‘A hundred measures[b] of wheat.’ And he said to him, ‘Take your bill, and write eighty.’ 8 So the master commended the unjust steward because he had dealt shrewdly. For the sons of this world are more shrewd in their generation than the sons of light.
9 “And I say to you, make friends for yourselves by unrighteous mammon, that when you fail,[c] they may receive you into an everlasting home. 10 He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is unjust also in much. 11 Therefore if you have not been faithful in the unrighteous mammon, who will commit to your trust the true riches? 12 And if you have not been faithful in what is another man’s, who will give you what is your own?
13 “No servant can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.”
I am surprised after reading this for my quiet time on Mon that I would have an encounter that enforces this. A day after reading.
I am not recollecting here what happened just that it peeves my heart to see people stooping so low to con money from people. I didn't take the offer simply because I don't see the thing as a need. I guess I have always remind myself not to commit to things easily without careful deliberation. I discover about this scam only later through checking on the internet.The scam is a very smart scam coz I spoke to my friend at CAD about the whole thing and he said the way the company do it, they seems to have cover the legal loopholes not to get caught.
Well, Luke 16 is a interesting passage. It speaks of an unjust steward who uses his wisdom, and his wisdom is a scheme to gain his own advantange that he would still find favour among other even when he get the sack. v8a tells us the master is like the steward as he approves his doing. And Christ made a comment that "For the sons of this world are more shrewd in their generation than the sons of light." He contrasts an evil master and his steward using the lure of money to do things that are not ethical and in this case use money to buy their own favour. But Christ exalts believer to be different in that we will use our wealth for a good reason and even be wise about it, that is that our stewardship of our wealth should be for righteous purposes, and that the eventuality is to bring people to Christ. v10-13 encourage that we must be faithful and faith is to be singular. Man are so prone to temptation that he is toss through and fro by temptation and especially our heart is easily divided. And Christ directed our heart to this deceit. Abide in the temporal will see the death of self. So it must as Christian, as Christ calls out to everyone who believe in Him to follow Him, we must work our heart towards that singular pursuit.
In the book of James says in James 4:4, "You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God." The lesson that I encounter peeves my heart to realise how man when left to their own viles can stoop to such deceit and allow their greed of money to be their means to their ends. They follow their heart, their flesh, their desires, the ways of the world and be rule under the dominion of the evil one. Sad. O Christ, if not for thy grace will I see thy light and to know thy mercy.
What a grief to realise what people do. Sad.
The Parable of the Unjust Steward
1 He also said to His disciples: “There was a certain rich man who had a steward, and an accusation was brought to him that this man was wasting his goods. 2 So he called him and said to him, ‘What is this I hear about you? Give an account of your stewardship, for you can no longer be steward.’
3 “Then the steward said within himself, ‘What shall I do? For my master is taking the stewardship away from me. I cannot dig; I am ashamed to beg. 4 I have resolved what to do, that when I am put out of the stewardship, they may receive me into their houses.’
5 “So he called every one of his master’s debtors to him, and said to the first, ‘How much do you owe my master?’ 6 And he said, ‘A hundred measures[a] of oil.’ So he said to him, ‘Take your bill, and sit down quickly and write fifty.’ 7 Then he said to another, ‘And how much do you owe?’ So he said, ‘A hundred measures[b] of wheat.’ And he said to him, ‘Take your bill, and write eighty.’ 8 So the master commended the unjust steward because he had dealt shrewdly. For the sons of this world are more shrewd in their generation than the sons of light.
9 “And I say to you, make friends for yourselves by unrighteous mammon, that when you fail,[c] they may receive you into an everlasting home. 10 He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is unjust also in much. 11 Therefore if you have not been faithful in the unrighteous mammon, who will commit to your trust the true riches? 12 And if you have not been faithful in what is another man’s, who will give you what is your own?
13 “No servant can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.”
I am surprised after reading this for my quiet time on Mon that I would have an encounter that enforces this. A day after reading.
I am not recollecting here what happened just that it peeves my heart to see people stooping so low to con money from people. I didn't take the offer simply because I don't see the thing as a need. I guess I have always remind myself not to commit to things easily without careful deliberation. I discover about this scam only later through checking on the internet.The scam is a very smart scam coz I spoke to my friend at CAD about the whole thing and he said the way the company do it, they seems to have cover the legal loopholes not to get caught.
Well, Luke 16 is a interesting passage. It speaks of an unjust steward who uses his wisdom, and his wisdom is a scheme to gain his own advantange that he would still find favour among other even when he get the sack. v8a tells us the master is like the steward as he approves his doing. And Christ made a comment that "For the sons of this world are more shrewd in their generation than the sons of light." He contrasts an evil master and his steward using the lure of money to do things that are not ethical and in this case use money to buy their own favour. But Christ exalts believer to be different in that we will use our wealth for a good reason and even be wise about it, that is that our stewardship of our wealth should be for righteous purposes, and that the eventuality is to bring people to Christ. v10-13 encourage that we must be faithful and faith is to be singular. Man are so prone to temptation that he is toss through and fro by temptation and especially our heart is easily divided. And Christ directed our heart to this deceit. Abide in the temporal will see the death of self. So it must as Christian, as Christ calls out to everyone who believe in Him to follow Him, we must work our heart towards that singular pursuit.
In the book of James says in James 4:4, "You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God." The lesson that I encounter peeves my heart to realise how man when left to their own viles can stoop to such deceit and allow their greed of money to be their means to their ends. They follow their heart, their flesh, their desires, the ways of the world and be rule under the dominion of the evil one. Sad. O Christ, if not for thy grace will I see thy light and to know thy mercy.
What a grief to realise what people do. Sad.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Spiritual Maturity
Prerequisite to spiritual growth is your view to Bible study and that is that you know what it says. You have to hold it high and learn what it says. There are no shortcuts. There are no shortcuts. Spiritual maturity is related to the application of truth, is it not? Spiritual blessing isn't something you get zapped with while you're just wandering through a revival tent. It doesn't happen that way. It's not something that's going to happen to you because a sermon was a real zinger and captivated you. You may have a momentary working of God in your heart, but spiritual
maturity and spiritual growth is the long-haul process of the application of divine truth in your life.
It calls for meditating on it day and night. It calls for observing to do everything that is in it. And then you begin to make your way prosperous and have good success. It doesn't happen in short spurts. It doesn't happen with ecstatic event. True spiritual development, true spiritual growth is just like human growth, it is a process fed by nourishment. And that nourishment is the Word of God. Jesus said, "Sanctify them by Thy truth, Thy Word is truth." Sanctification doesn't happen in a stadium, at a big rally. Sanctification doesn't happen at a camp somewhere where somebody gave a message that grabbed your heart.
Sanctification is a long-haul process by which someone is matured into Christ's likeness through the intake and the living out of the understanding of divine truth. So we must learn then what the Scripture says and then we can begin to make a deeper effort to understand what it means by what it says. And that puts it into the fabric of our life and allows us to begin to live it out.
(Adapted from John MacArthur - What it takes to study God's word)
How true...
maturity and spiritual growth is the long-haul process of the application of divine truth in your life.
It calls for meditating on it day and night. It calls for observing to do everything that is in it. And then you begin to make your way prosperous and have good success. It doesn't happen in short spurts. It doesn't happen with ecstatic event. True spiritual development, true spiritual growth is just like human growth, it is a process fed by nourishment. And that nourishment is the Word of God. Jesus said, "Sanctify them by Thy truth, Thy Word is truth." Sanctification doesn't happen in a stadium, at a big rally. Sanctification doesn't happen at a camp somewhere where somebody gave a message that grabbed your heart.
Sanctification is a long-haul process by which someone is matured into Christ's likeness through the intake and the living out of the understanding of divine truth. So we must learn then what the Scripture says and then we can begin to make a deeper effort to understand what it means by what it says. And that puts it into the fabric of our life and allows us to begin to live it out.
(Adapted from John MacArthur - What it takes to study God's word)
How true...
Thursday, September 18, 2008
My Life is in You Lord
A song I heard years back but heard it again on Youtube.
Nice tune :)
My Life is in You Lord
Written by: Daniel Gardner
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
G
My life is in you, Lord
Em
My strength is in you, Lord
C G D
My hope is in you, Lord, in you, it's in you
(repeat)
C D G
I will praise you with all of my life
C D G
I will praise you with all of my strength
D G
With all of my life
E Am
With all of my strength
F Am7 D C G
All of my hope is in you!
Nice tune :)
My Life is in You Lord
Written by: Daniel Gardner
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
G
My life is in you, Lord
Em
My strength is in you, Lord
C G D
My hope is in you, Lord, in you, it's in you
(repeat)
C D G
I will praise you with all of my life
C D G
I will praise you with all of my strength
D G
With all of my life
E Am
With all of my strength
F Am7 D C G
All of my hope is in you!
Monday, September 15, 2008
Brunei Darussalam - 14 and 15 Sep 08
A sleepy town, and a small one. Yet the pace of life tells you life can exist without hectic and hassle. Glad to meet up with Ronald and made friends with some Bruneian Counterparts at work also. Thank God for this short but restful trip.
Kampung Air...the kampung village by Brunei River.
Sultan Mosque. No building in Brunei can be taller than this building.
A park near the city. Comes with a waterfall that is running low on utilities.
Ronald and Me in CheezBox. He drank black pearl tea while I settled for mango tea. Met his wife and his very lovely and cute daughter in his house.
Hotel Empire. Built like a palace by the Royal Family. Overlook the Sea and surrounded by pearly white beach. Simply awesome. Simply enchanting. Have a very nicely landscaped swimming pool which u can swim up to the drink bar. Superbly amazing, the concept. A very potential holidaying destination one day. Except for the room rate...it will remain a distant memory...Took loads of pics there...here are some of the selected ones.
No pictures of food though Ronald brought me to a very nice Chinese Restaurant. Pork knuckles and Curry Fish Head were really nice. Just pictures of sceneries - at least for a change.
Kampung Air...the kampung village by Brunei River.
Sultan Mosque. No building in Brunei can be taller than this building.
A park near the city. Comes with a waterfall that is running low on utilities.
Ronald and Me in CheezBox. He drank black pearl tea while I settled for mango tea. Met his wife and his very lovely and cute daughter in his house.
Hotel Empire. Built like a palace by the Royal Family. Overlook the Sea and surrounded by pearly white beach. Simply awesome. Simply enchanting. Have a very nicely landscaped swimming pool which u can swim up to the drink bar. Superbly amazing, the concept. A very potential holidaying destination one day. Except for the room rate...it will remain a distant memory...Took loads of pics there...here are some of the selected ones.
No pictures of food though Ronald brought me to a very nice Chinese Restaurant. Pork knuckles and Curry Fish Head were really nice. Just pictures of sceneries - at least for a change.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Who is Jesus?
Tonight Rev Stephen Tong spoke on the morality of Christ.
Perhaps we have not understood what God meant when He said in Isaiah, the Holy one of God. Innocent, righteous He is. Only God can live a perfect life, yet as man, was with temptation but He has perfect morality. Even Judas who betrayed Christ would still give glory to God, saying He has killed an innocent.
Indeed. Tonight Rev Tong has again exalted Christ for who He is. Listen to God, Rev Tong said, we shouldn't be always talk to God. Choose to spend more time to listen. God has more to speak than we do. He is the way.
So refreshing to listen to a preacher who preached and exalt Christ. The truth.
Shouldn't miss an opportunity to see Christ lifted up.
Bring your unsaved friends. Christ, the Saviour of the World. Light of the World. The Word.
Visit the rally url at http://www.stemi.org.sg/whoisjesus/
There is a bus that shuttle from Kallang MRT to indoor stadium before the rally and after the rally.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Flying
Flying off in less than a week. Sad, that it is a mad rush and rush back. But at least will meet a long time friend :) Happy Mid Autumn Festival, everyone. I won't be in Singapore.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Yosemite
What a wish to be back there again.
Visited Yosemite 4 years ago. Next year, hope to stay at least 3 days there.
Visited Yosemite 4 years ago. Next year, hope to stay at least 3 days there.
7 years up
Hehe, seven years pass..woa...just how time flies.
7 years in my first job, that is just how quickly time swapped by. Zapped by. The ratrace of life. Fast and Furious.
John Piper relates this "You only have one life. You have only one crack at it" How real the stuff that we carry in life are so minnow in light of what we have in eternity. Recently heard a couple more cases of people with cancer. Wonder whether hearing this really hit me. Life I may say is transient. But have I internalise that reality.
I need to examine again.
Radical change I feel is needed. Be my own terrorist and lift up this comfort zone.
Only one life, better dun waste it.
7 years in my first job, that is just how quickly time swapped by. Zapped by. The ratrace of life. Fast and Furious.
John Piper relates this "You only have one life. You have only one crack at it" How real the stuff that we carry in life are so minnow in light of what we have in eternity. Recently heard a couple more cases of people with cancer. Wonder whether hearing this really hit me. Life I may say is transient. But have I internalise that reality.
I need to examine again.
Radical change I feel is needed. Be my own terrorist and lift up this comfort zone.
Only one life, better dun waste it.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Some things pondered
Failure is not falling down, but refusing to get up. Mistakes are a fact of life. It is the response to that error that counts.
Proverbs 24:16
For a righteous man may fall seven times And rise again, But the wicked shall fall by calamity.
Proverbs 24:16
For a righteous man may fall seven times And rise again, But the wicked shall fall by calamity.
Monday, September 1, 2008
当你孤单你会想起谁
你的心情总在飞
什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能 永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
Chorus
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回
什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能 永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
Chorus
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Wal-E
I don't want to be just alive, I want to live...
The captain, the big fat captain said that.
The desire to have a purpose of existance.
Even the robots had that...and it drives them.
The heart of existance. Thank God He has written that in the book called the bible.
The captain, the big fat captain said that.
The desire to have a purpose of existance.
Even the robots had that...and it drives them.
The heart of existance. Thank God He has written that in the book called the bible.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
A chance to go begging....
4 years ago, a company asked whether I would like to join their company and be their regional technical specialist. I would have a 20% pay increase and 6 months bonus and a car allowance.
I decline simply I felt unsettled about flying and there wasn't a desire to really leave my existing job. In other words, I was resistant in a way to change. I thought about it long and hard but still came to a conclusion, that I would not. I do not think I pray long and hard about this matter, it was more drawn to my mind concluding that it wasn't the best time to leave. The pay was good. But as I didn't feel any excitment about the new job, I decline eventually.
Life could have been very different.
Decisions in life can change one's life journey dramatically. A choice. A decision.
4 years has gone. By the turning of an eye. In a way I am more glad than ever. Certain experiences one can have can never be learnt till he walked a certain journey. Like the Samaritan that walked through Jericho, would not be able to minister to the injured Jew if he hadn't walk that way.
Our Lord met the woman at the well, of course being God, He knew His purpose. I don't. Neither the Samaritian. But in all of life, every pathway, every choice we made, I believed as a Christian, God meant it for His good and so our good. Our good is only when we believed His good for us. Only when we love the good of God in and through our life, we wouldn't even see the bad as good.
Frustrated at times I am at the workload I have and fleeting thoughts of why shouldn't I leave for that job 4 years ago? This thought had crept into my mind before, but slowly I saw that faith in God is what pleasure in God is all about and I soon concede that His plan is far better and exceedingly more glad than anything else. The more I go through each day, the more transient I realise life is, the more I hinge a greater hope in God. Sin and temptations still abound but I hope a heavenward thinking will lift me off the grab of sin slowly but sure. I know that sin is only a sudden decision away. O if not for the grace of God, where comes my restrain.
The battle of unbelief and the battle of belief. Which is stronger. I feel unbelief is a easier option to fall into. So our Lord says, "Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil." Sin is sinful becuase it is sin. The evil thereof is the sin not the temptation. Hence our Lord says it plainly, to deliver us from evil. Evil is the devil's work. What greter deliverance is needed than to be delivered from the evil one Himself. O God spare us that the devil becomes our Lord. With unbelief we fall into that.
The struggle and battle of sin is ever so real. I must pray. I must. I must be aware of His saving grace. I must be aware that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. As the whole hymn that says, "O how I need Thee every hour." How true.
And so I must pray more and more.
I decline simply I felt unsettled about flying and there wasn't a desire to really leave my existing job. In other words, I was resistant in a way to change. I thought about it long and hard but still came to a conclusion, that I would not. I do not think I pray long and hard about this matter, it was more drawn to my mind concluding that it wasn't the best time to leave. The pay was good. But as I didn't feel any excitment about the new job, I decline eventually.
Life could have been very different.
Decisions in life can change one's life journey dramatically. A choice. A decision.
4 years has gone. By the turning of an eye. In a way I am more glad than ever. Certain experiences one can have can never be learnt till he walked a certain journey. Like the Samaritan that walked through Jericho, would not be able to minister to the injured Jew if he hadn't walk that way.
Our Lord met the woman at the well, of course being God, He knew His purpose. I don't. Neither the Samaritian. But in all of life, every pathway, every choice we made, I believed as a Christian, God meant it for His good and so our good. Our good is only when we believed His good for us. Only when we love the good of God in and through our life, we wouldn't even see the bad as good.
Frustrated at times I am at the workload I have and fleeting thoughts of why shouldn't I leave for that job 4 years ago? This thought had crept into my mind before, but slowly I saw that faith in God is what pleasure in God is all about and I soon concede that His plan is far better and exceedingly more glad than anything else. The more I go through each day, the more transient I realise life is, the more I hinge a greater hope in God. Sin and temptations still abound but I hope a heavenward thinking will lift me off the grab of sin slowly but sure. I know that sin is only a sudden decision away. O if not for the grace of God, where comes my restrain.
The battle of unbelief and the battle of belief. Which is stronger. I feel unbelief is a easier option to fall into. So our Lord says, "Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil." Sin is sinful becuase it is sin. The evil thereof is the sin not the temptation. Hence our Lord says it plainly, to deliver us from evil. Evil is the devil's work. What greter deliverance is needed than to be delivered from the evil one Himself. O God spare us that the devil becomes our Lord. With unbelief we fall into that.
The struggle and battle of sin is ever so real. I must pray. I must. I must be aware of His saving grace. I must be aware that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. As the whole hymn that says, "O how I need Thee every hour." How true.
And so I must pray more and more.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
God is the Gospel
Just had lunch. And its friday.
Some thoughts cross my mind just. It was in the morning. Myriad of them.
Infact as I pondered on certain things, I realise quite a few things. I believe it is the reaction of What John Piper said in His DVD series, "God is the Gospel." means.
John Piper ask this question. Why did God created things? And being things they are of 2nd order to the creator. Nothing created can be higher. But all these things exist for the potential of idolatary. He went on to explain and illustrate it by bread and water. Jesus said He is the bread of life and also whoever comes to Him will not thirst. The creation of bread and water can allow us to transpose whatever natural need, to have the emotion to understand what it means to be hungry and thirsty for spiritual senses. The creation of things with the potential of idolatary or even joy could elevate us the understanding that we can have a delight above all delights, a love of God above all loves so there is constrast...there is a difference. The more I think about it, that is so true. Light and darkness. Treasure and junk. Why Paul can say I count all things as loss that I may gain Christ.
Tonight I am sharing about Christ being our treasure. Somehow watching the DVD has illuminate and gave me a living perspective about Christ. If Jesus isn't in heaven, would I still want to be there?
I have faced a number of disappointments in life. Mainly relationships. Yet those disappointments has reinforced the unfailing love of God. I don't think I am building an Ah Q mentality. We transposed hunger we realised in physical hunger what is spiritual hunger because we can draw understanding from a physical point of view, what hunger meant. If we have desire for something, we earnestly want it more. The word hunger, put together with God meant something if we experienced fasting, if we experienced hunger physically before. A Godward hunger. Spiritually we will understand our greater need for God. Hence, upon hindsight, these disappointments are necessary I believe in the journey I have with God to let me know His unfailing love for me. I have met failures before so I can in a sense understand what success and perfection means.
There is a need for me to learn this. A bent of my own heart to let toys rule. To let worldly desire rule. No matter how I try to deny it, unless I go through the school of life and with God opening my eyes, I would never understand all these lessons.
I must learn these that I will see a greater treasure of God. God indeed is the gospel. I must habour in my own heart this, I want to be in heaven because Jesus is there.
Some thoughts cross my mind just. It was in the morning. Myriad of them.
Infact as I pondered on certain things, I realise quite a few things. I believe it is the reaction of What John Piper said in His DVD series, "God is the Gospel." means.
John Piper ask this question. Why did God created things? And being things they are of 2nd order to the creator. Nothing created can be higher. But all these things exist for the potential of idolatary. He went on to explain and illustrate it by bread and water. Jesus said He is the bread of life and also whoever comes to Him will not thirst. The creation of bread and water can allow us to transpose whatever natural need, to have the emotion to understand what it means to be hungry and thirsty for spiritual senses. The creation of things with the potential of idolatary or even joy could elevate us the understanding that we can have a delight above all delights, a love of God above all loves so there is constrast...there is a difference. The more I think about it, that is so true. Light and darkness. Treasure and junk. Why Paul can say I count all things as loss that I may gain Christ.
Tonight I am sharing about Christ being our treasure. Somehow watching the DVD has illuminate and gave me a living perspective about Christ. If Jesus isn't in heaven, would I still want to be there?
I have faced a number of disappointments in life. Mainly relationships. Yet those disappointments has reinforced the unfailing love of God. I don't think I am building an Ah Q mentality. We transposed hunger we realised in physical hunger what is spiritual hunger because we can draw understanding from a physical point of view, what hunger meant. If we have desire for something, we earnestly want it more. The word hunger, put together with God meant something if we experienced fasting, if we experienced hunger physically before. A Godward hunger. Spiritually we will understand our greater need for God. Hence, upon hindsight, these disappointments are necessary I believe in the journey I have with God to let me know His unfailing love for me. I have met failures before so I can in a sense understand what success and perfection means.
There is a need for me to learn this. A bent of my own heart to let toys rule. To let worldly desire rule. No matter how I try to deny it, unless I go through the school of life and with God opening my eyes, I would never understand all these lessons.
I must learn these that I will see a greater treasure of God. God indeed is the gospel. I must habour in my own heart this, I want to be in heaven because Jesus is there.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Olympics
Maybe I am old and getting dull..but still intrigued by especially the gymnast athletic sommersaults. Breathaking..But realise, while I can watch, I won't be able to do the stuff they do. Age and size is not on my side.
But nevertheless beautiful display of artistry. At its finest.
Well, surprisingly Brazil lost to Argentina. I shouldn't say surprisingly. Argentina was good. More inventive with their passes than hapless Brazil. Well, fortune favours the brave. But best of all 2 Liverpool players played in the semi-finals. (Know who I am talking about - look at the picture below)
When you are old, you tend to get more sentimental yet more passive.
Got 2 free tickets of 12 lotus, still undecided how to go about using it. At this rate I am thinking, it would be most likely the show would be over and it will end up on the waste paper basket somehow. Just like the Olympics..soon it would be over and another 4 years before the grasp begin. I would grasp when I see the tickets in a few weeks time and say, Opps, show is over...
But nevertheless beautiful display of artistry. At its finest.
Well, surprisingly Brazil lost to Argentina. I shouldn't say surprisingly. Argentina was good. More inventive with their passes than hapless Brazil. Well, fortune favours the brave. But best of all 2 Liverpool players played in the semi-finals. (Know who I am talking about - look at the picture below)
When you are old, you tend to get more sentimental yet more passive.
Got 2 free tickets of 12 lotus, still undecided how to go about using it. At this rate I am thinking, it would be most likely the show would be over and it will end up on the waste paper basket somehow. Just like the Olympics..soon it would be over and another 4 years before the grasp begin. I would grasp when I see the tickets in a few weeks time and say, Opps, show is over...
Saturday, August 9, 2008
St John's Island
Beautiful day at St John's Island - Nice relaxing day..fishing and enjoying the fireworks at night. Happy National Day!
Nice..nice and really nice.
Spent a really good day with Justin, Rachel, Ruth and Michaela...Thank God for that...
Enjoy the Pics..it tells a thousand words :)
Nice..nice and really nice.
Spent a really good day with Justin, Rachel, Ruth and Michaela...Thank God for that...
Enjoy the Pics..it tells a thousand words :)
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Looking back
It is a strange thing indeed.
But I realise the experience of emotions can only come richer with age. Comes richer because of richer experience in life.
A tear, a laughter, a smile, can be frivalous yet bearing depth.
A grief of deep sorrow or a smile of deep elation, who knows except the spirit of a man.
The scribe of emotions would only lift his pen when his heart so speaks.
Somehow, the days that has gone by have placed in my soul, a note, a musical note that would best describe those days and years that have gone by.
Richer each day and I hope all the more wiser.
A day pleasant, indeed gives the heart a reason to rejoice. A settled mind for the day, gives the soul a thanksgiving song.
Life simplicity, Life excitment, I am more mellowed but yet all contentment of life leaves my heart gladder than before.
Thank God for diminishing the allurements that once would have greatly unsettled this soul.
But I realise the experience of emotions can only come richer with age. Comes richer because of richer experience in life.
A tear, a laughter, a smile, can be frivalous yet bearing depth.
A grief of deep sorrow or a smile of deep elation, who knows except the spirit of a man.
The scribe of emotions would only lift his pen when his heart so speaks.
Somehow, the days that has gone by have placed in my soul, a note, a musical note that would best describe those days and years that have gone by.
Richer each day and I hope all the more wiser.
A day pleasant, indeed gives the heart a reason to rejoice. A settled mind for the day, gives the soul a thanksgiving song.
Life simplicity, Life excitment, I am more mellowed but yet all contentment of life leaves my heart gladder than before.
Thank God for diminishing the allurements that once would have greatly unsettled this soul.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Isaiah 61
The Good News of Salvation
1 “The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon Me,Because the LORD has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
2 To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD,And the day of vengeance of our God;
To comfort all who mourn,
3 To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning,The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.”
4 And they shall rebuild the old ruins,They shall raise up the former desolations,
And they shall repair the ruined cities, The desolations of many generations.
5 Strangers shall stand and feed your flocks,And the sons of the foreigner
Shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.
6 But you shall be named the priests of the LORD, They shall call you the servants of our God. You shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, And in their glory you shall boast.
7 Instead of your shame you shall have double honor,And instead of confusion they shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double;
Everlasting joy shall be theirs.
8 “ For I, the LORD, love justice; I hate robbery for burnt offering;
I will direct their work in truth, And will make with them an everlasting covenant.
9 Their descendants shall be known among the Gentiles, And their offspring among the people. All who see them shall acknowledge them, That they are the posterity whom the LORD has blessed.”
10 I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, My soul shall be joyful in my God;
For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
11 For as the earth brings forth its bud,As the garden causes the things that are sown in it to spring forth, So the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.
The Good News of Salvation
1 “The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon Me,Because the LORD has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
2 To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD,And the day of vengeance of our God;
To comfort all who mourn,
3 To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning,The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.”
4 And they shall rebuild the old ruins,They shall raise up the former desolations,
And they shall repair the ruined cities, The desolations of many generations.
5 Strangers shall stand and feed your flocks,And the sons of the foreigner
Shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.
6 But you shall be named the priests of the LORD, They shall call you the servants of our God. You shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, And in their glory you shall boast.
7 Instead of your shame you shall have double honor,And instead of confusion they shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double;
Everlasting joy shall be theirs.
8 “ For I, the LORD, love justice; I hate robbery for burnt offering;
I will direct their work in truth, And will make with them an everlasting covenant.
9 Their descendants shall be known among the Gentiles, And their offspring among the people. All who see them shall acknowledge them, That they are the posterity whom the LORD has blessed.”
10 I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, My soul shall be joyful in my God;
For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
11 For as the earth brings forth its bud,As the garden causes the things that are sown in it to spring forth, So the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
The life of God in the soul of man
Henry Scougal.
An unknown if not for reservist.
Read a book with that title.
Said this "Christianity must not be a duty but a delight"
and this "make light any affections of this world and find diligent in loving Christ."
A book of 4 chapters. Read 2 thus far.
Henry Scougal wrote this as a letter to a friend. Subsequently Charles Wesley gave this writing to George Whitfield.
It is indeed a meaty book.
The Christian's Passion can be so decieving yet unless we really come to know the object of our love, it would not reveal the worth of our soul to the Saviour.
This book really spurned a lot of thoughts. A lot of quietness to ponder and much petitions to consider in prayer.
I suggest this book to anyone who wants to expose their heart in their lack of affections for God.
It is I believe one of the most soul searching book I ever read.
An unknown if not for reservist.
Read a book with that title.
Said this "Christianity must not be a duty but a delight"
and this "make light any affections of this world and find diligent in loving Christ."
A book of 4 chapters. Read 2 thus far.
Henry Scougal wrote this as a letter to a friend. Subsequently Charles Wesley gave this writing to George Whitfield.
It is indeed a meaty book.
The Christian's Passion can be so decieving yet unless we really come to know the object of our love, it would not reveal the worth of our soul to the Saviour.
This book really spurned a lot of thoughts. A lot of quietness to ponder and much petitions to consider in prayer.
I suggest this book to anyone who wants to expose their heart in their lack of affections for God.
It is I believe one of the most soul searching book I ever read.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Conscience
Just heard a very sobering message on the conscience.
Perhaps I never realise the importance of guarding our conscience.
Conscience is not the word of God but it is the warning system when under the obedience to the word of God is senstivie to sin.
It is either under the information of what the bible says or it oppose to this information.
Keeping it warning and heeding is what keeps us from bending to sin. And this is a vital, crucial crux where we must take tender care.
It also tells how important to keep conscience being informed. Misinformed or uninformed conscience can make the conscience seared.
Non or careless response can slso make it callous.
Listening to this sermon again. Didn't realise the core impotrance of this truth.
Amazing the things that are said. Hope to share it one day. Solid solid solid.
I should soft soft soft. Conscience must be soft to the Word of God.
Perhaps I never realise the importance of guarding our conscience.
Conscience is not the word of God but it is the warning system when under the obedience to the word of God is senstivie to sin.
It is either under the information of what the bible says or it oppose to this information.
Keeping it warning and heeding is what keeps us from bending to sin. And this is a vital, crucial crux where we must take tender care.
It also tells how important to keep conscience being informed. Misinformed or uninformed conscience can make the conscience seared.
Non or careless response can slso make it callous.
Listening to this sermon again. Didn't realise the core impotrance of this truth.
Amazing the things that are said. Hope to share it one day. Solid solid solid.
I should soft soft soft. Conscience must be soft to the Word of God.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Reservist
Boredom has taken a new level.
Being green is the in thing nowadays. Especially if you consider Project Maia.
By being green in uniform makes you yawn. Yawn. And when your mouth shut, your eyes also.
Never rest so much before.
Wonder the word reservist should be re-spelt as restervist instead.
Amazing what the Army does. The decisive force. Decidedly rest and rest. Forget the rest. Just keep resting.
What a restervist. Haha.
Once a year thing. But felt I had my lifetime of rest already.
Being green is the in thing nowadays. Especially if you consider Project Maia.
By being green in uniform makes you yawn. Yawn. And when your mouth shut, your eyes also.
Never rest so much before.
Wonder the word reservist should be re-spelt as restervist instead.
Amazing what the Army does. The decisive force. Decidedly rest and rest. Forget the rest. Just keep resting.
What a restervist. Haha.
Once a year thing. But felt I had my lifetime of rest already.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Love Conquers All
Love Conquers All.
Perfect love cast away all fear.
And love cover a multitude of sins.
The greatest of these is love.
Perfect love cast away all fear.
And love cover a multitude of sins.
The greatest of these is love.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Morning Thoughts
Your Cross so dear
Your Love so real
To know that that there is no fear
when I am in Your presence
Your Love so real
To know that that there is no fear
when I am in Your presence
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
All is still well
It is well with my soul.
Still all is well.
May each day, I am still tender and broken over sin.
And allow me to see the abundance of all of who my God is.
May I see a richer mercy every day.
May I see a higher love every day.
May I see a greater forgiveness every day.
That I may lie prostate to experience a deeper walk with my God.
His Glory He says He will not give to another.
May I worship Him more in truth and in spirit every day..
The work of Grace has not cease....
Still all is well.
May each day, I am still tender and broken over sin.
And allow me to see the abundance of all of who my God is.
May I see a richer mercy every day.
May I see a higher love every day.
May I see a greater forgiveness every day.
That I may lie prostate to experience a deeper walk with my God.
His Glory He says He will not give to another.
May I worship Him more in truth and in spirit every day..
The work of Grace has not cease....
Monday, July 14, 2008
The hand that love God
In Luke 9:62, Jesus spoke these words, "No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God."
These are certainly words of dedication and committment. Words that talks about fitness for the kingdom of God. The stamina that enables a athlelete to complete the course of running. The heart that beats for God is the only qualification God desires.
This week 2 things happen that made me cringe. That is right, "cringe". It is not something I do not know. But it is disheartening to realise the decietfulness of the human heart again. Not withstanding mine own included. But the fact that reveals that wickedness is so prevalent among people is an encounter you wish you meet less. Christians, they called themselves but inwardly I feel are an enterprise to their own means. See that they have made my house into a den of thieves.
I shudder to think. How many of us are not having a right heart in the faith considering the years we have since name the name of Christ. An utilitarian God is what we desire. Not a God of the universe.
I realise God's forebearance is really matchless. If I could see in the eyes of these men and still love them, and see in them an eternity in them that they are made by God, made in the image of God, that I could still love them, I lie. I can't. I could put into pretence that this is righteous indignation. I hope my anger is aroused because of their nonchanlent behaviour towards God. If my heart would break in compassion, I would have attain true godliness. That their sin is so deceiving even to themselves.
Oh, how blinding is sin. Even mine. The sinfulness of sin. How I wish I could break out this web of sin. That blinds everyone.
I hope they would know. God's forebearance and forgiveness is great. And bountiful. But shall we sin that grace may abound. God forbid.
I really do not know how to react except as what scriptures says as a matter of duty, to love them still, not to hate, but to love that God may be seen in me, and not me be seen.
God is love. How much more I realise through this 2 events.
God indeed is God.
Man indeed is born unto sin.
These are certainly words of dedication and committment. Words that talks about fitness for the kingdom of God. The stamina that enables a athlelete to complete the course of running. The heart that beats for God is the only qualification God desires.
This week 2 things happen that made me cringe. That is right, "cringe". It is not something I do not know. But it is disheartening to realise the decietfulness of the human heart again. Not withstanding mine own included. But the fact that reveals that wickedness is so prevalent among people is an encounter you wish you meet less. Christians, they called themselves but inwardly I feel are an enterprise to their own means. See that they have made my house into a den of thieves.
I shudder to think. How many of us are not having a right heart in the faith considering the years we have since name the name of Christ. An utilitarian God is what we desire. Not a God of the universe.
I realise God's forebearance is really matchless. If I could see in the eyes of these men and still love them, and see in them an eternity in them that they are made by God, made in the image of God, that I could still love them, I lie. I can't. I could put into pretence that this is righteous indignation. I hope my anger is aroused because of their nonchanlent behaviour towards God. If my heart would break in compassion, I would have attain true godliness. That their sin is so deceiving even to themselves.
Oh, how blinding is sin. Even mine. The sinfulness of sin. How I wish I could break out this web of sin. That blinds everyone.
I hope they would know. God's forebearance and forgiveness is great. And bountiful. But shall we sin that grace may abound. God forbid.
I really do not know how to react except as what scriptures says as a matter of duty, to love them still, not to hate, but to love that God may be seen in me, and not me be seen.
God is love. How much more I realise through this 2 events.
God indeed is God.
Man indeed is born unto sin.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Tangkak adventure...
Eventful trip. Shall not say much...Went to Alicia's grandma orchard..and lo and below. Took only very few pictures and the durians were super nice...should have taken what an opened durian looked like..but didn't :(
tried 4 varieties...Ang Hare, XO, Kunip and Thirteen..all different but all were good...XO were slightly sour...a bit of alocholic taste..and bitter, Ang Hare is light in color but creamy and bitter, Kunip...dark yellow and packed with sweetness and a little bitter aftertaste and Thirteen, light taste with strong bitterness as the aftertaste...on the whole, everything is nice. Alicia's grandma said,"come next year" Invitation accepted. Haha..
After the durians at Alicia's grandma house, went down to her orchard where we tried more durians..really a galore..those on the tree, those on the ground, those stacked by the side...Eating durians among durians trees..how would the durian trees must have felt?
We had beef noodles and claypot thereafter...super super good the beef..the claypot packed with a beef punch...Moo...:p We went back after that..between otah and seafood, I decided seafood was the better option..so swing by kukup..tried a third restaurant..simple meal coz our tummy were full but the seafood was so good..that we forgot we were full....and down the table of seafood...from cereal prawn, to mussel, to kangkong and then venison..it was ground zero in a matter of a short time..a very short time.
It was a enjoyable day indeed.. Really thank God for a really good day of simple rest in the midst of a very busy week..thank Him for the fellowship with Stacey and Alicia...and Nick and JiunMing...Going reservist on Wed...at least there is that fond memories to remember...and the stack of rambutans and durians seeds that was brought back..hmmm...
And Alicia's grandma is so warm and hospitable..Really a nice and wonderful lady... :)
The accidental pic that turned out to be a video instead...
Unripe mangosteen..too bad..but manage to find 3 ripe ones..we tried one...very sweet..haha
Hanging durian waiting to make a lunar landing
The distant cousins of durians..rambutans..
No, Noodles. What No? Noodles, No??
The expression of satisfaction..
Beef Claypot...goes really well with rice
Simple Seafood dinner...
tried 4 varieties...Ang Hare, XO, Kunip and Thirteen..all different but all were good...XO were slightly sour...a bit of alocholic taste..and bitter, Ang Hare is light in color but creamy and bitter, Kunip...dark yellow and packed with sweetness and a little bitter aftertaste and Thirteen, light taste with strong bitterness as the aftertaste...on the whole, everything is nice. Alicia's grandma said,"come next year" Invitation accepted. Haha..
After the durians at Alicia's grandma house, went down to her orchard where we tried more durians..really a galore..those on the tree, those on the ground, those stacked by the side...Eating durians among durians trees..how would the durian trees must have felt?
We had beef noodles and claypot thereafter...super super good the beef..the claypot packed with a beef punch...Moo...:p We went back after that..between otah and seafood, I decided seafood was the better option..so swing by kukup..tried a third restaurant..simple meal coz our tummy were full but the seafood was so good..that we forgot we were full....and down the table of seafood...from cereal prawn, to mussel, to kangkong and then venison..it was ground zero in a matter of a short time..a very short time.
It was a enjoyable day indeed.. Really thank God for a really good day of simple rest in the midst of a very busy week..thank Him for the fellowship with Stacey and Alicia...and Nick and JiunMing...Going reservist on Wed...at least there is that fond memories to remember...and the stack of rambutans and durians seeds that was brought back..hmmm...
And Alicia's grandma is so warm and hospitable..Really a nice and wonderful lady... :)
The accidental pic that turned out to be a video instead...
Unripe mangosteen..too bad..but manage to find 3 ripe ones..we tried one...very sweet..haha
Hanging durian waiting to make a lunar landing
The distant cousins of durians..rambutans..
No, Noodles. What No? Noodles, No??
The expression of satisfaction..
Beef Claypot...goes really well with rice
Simple Seafood dinner...
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