Random strum. Random chords.
Nothing coming. Been trying this for a few weeks already each time I am stressed out or have a thought..a feeling.
Did had a few new experience. Some new tunes, a few of which I think can work further on. Didn't realise how much I like conceiving new tunes.
Wish I could play the piano well. Really well. Sometimes to me I feel crippled not being able to translate the melody from the guitar to the piano. My piano has been sitting in the living room for quite a while. Its time to say hi.
The days do go by fast and fury. Things changes very rapidly in the midst of the routine part of life.
I feel nowadays though I see more stability in the way I am, yet there are times there is a quiet desire for greater change. Hope and prayer carries this thought. Well, it is not exactly restlessness but I guess it is a waiting. I anticipating God to intervene. Sometimes the waiting for deliverance is great, yet at times the hope that comes with a real knowledge of God's love and His faithfulness rest my heart well. I hope to express this by writing certain songs to describe that. I think I have done that. 3 or so songs around this light.
Paul says love is the greater of faith and hope. I agree. Love is active. Love moves people. And the greatest thing is love move God or shall I say God move love. Since God is love. And the deepest and highest understanding of God is love. We fall in love but God doesn't fall in love. He acts in love signifying His power, His will, His plan, His purpose. There is no weakness in God's love, only sacrifice.
Faith and hope comes from God's word. Love rejoices in truth and Paul says faith comes by hearing. A knowledge of God's love can produce both love and hope. Therefore, simply love embodies faith and hope. A faith in God and a hope in God. All these are acted because God act in love towards us.
I hope I will never fail to see God's unfailing love. Though my eyes might become weak, I thank God He asked me not to walk by sight but by faith. Though my hope in God may falter, God returns to His faithfulness, and says He will keep to His promise and therefore my hope in God remains.
The love of God so amazing. I borrow this line from one of the songs I wrote. The love of God so amazing, sinners washed by His blood. Perfect righteousness in Christ, robed by His precious love.
Thank God.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Meditations
Am truly delighted. Wrote 2 songs some time back on the death, burial and resurrection of Christ.
Today got back a preliminary arrangment recording from Anne. Simply lovely. Hearing the songs, it brought deep meditations of Christ, His love, His great love, His only love. The love that covers that multitude of sins. The love that demonstrated the glory of God where justice and love meets on the Cross.
O how I can deny the Savior's love, the loud echo of the Redeemer, the silent cry in those hours of darkness, the anguish on His brow..all unseen till light brought forth His triumphant victory over sin that Christ relinquished His life.
Perhaps, the most easy thing to forget is the matchless love of Christ. When we think even for a second and question the love of Christ, we need to turn our gaze back to Christ on the Cross and that would bring my denial of His love to a complete shame.
Thank God for His glorious gospel.
Today got back a preliminary arrangment recording from Anne. Simply lovely. Hearing the songs, it brought deep meditations of Christ, His love, His great love, His only love. The love that covers that multitude of sins. The love that demonstrated the glory of God where justice and love meets on the Cross.
O how I can deny the Savior's love, the loud echo of the Redeemer, the silent cry in those hours of darkness, the anguish on His brow..all unseen till light brought forth His triumphant victory over sin that Christ relinquished His life.
Perhaps, the most easy thing to forget is the matchless love of Christ. When we think even for a second and question the love of Christ, we need to turn our gaze back to Christ on the Cross and that would bring my denial of His love to a complete shame.
Thank God for His glorious gospel.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
A touch of rest
Didn't know I could fall so sick. Perhaps not very sick.
But couldn't move much without feeling discomfort. Aching all over. Thought I had Chigagunuya virus (did i get the spelling right?) but I suspect it was more likely stomach flu. No fever just plain aching.
In the end, didn't get to do what I wanted to do this weekend. Was enforced rest. This rest did good. Thought through a lot of things which otherwise I am too busy to think about.
Being sick is a blessing. Next week would be going up to KL for a week...well perhaps rest..but taking a short course and having an exam..could be stressful..dunno but still glad..away from the work, the hustle and bustle of routine life.
Glad. God always know to providentially do His work of grace. I am glad for being sick. Thankful infact.
But couldn't move much without feeling discomfort. Aching all over. Thought I had Chigagunuya virus (did i get the spelling right?) but I suspect it was more likely stomach flu. No fever just plain aching.
In the end, didn't get to do what I wanted to do this weekend. Was enforced rest. This rest did good. Thought through a lot of things which otherwise I am too busy to think about.
Being sick is a blessing. Next week would be going up to KL for a week...well perhaps rest..but taking a short course and having an exam..could be stressful..dunno but still glad..away from the work, the hustle and bustle of routine life.
Glad. God always know to providentially do His work of grace. I am glad for being sick. Thankful infact.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Count it not cross it
It is very interesting. I am suppose to be very sad...but sadly I can't.
Irony.
Thought through a lot of things this week. I know what triggered it but there I saw the bible on my table one night. I ask myself again about God and if I open the bible I know the bible will tell me about my God.
That is exciting. I have read this month and last extensively on Genesis. I am very intrigued by the life of Abraham again. This time round when I read it, one starking reality was seen. God's over-riding purpose and design of Abraham's life covers Him. Abraham was accounted as righteous because He believed God. Sure Abraham has his failures and moments of sin, yet God's purpose prevail. Abraham did seek God. His heart is for God. Issac's sacrifice proved that. Abraham is a man of faith.
Abraham's life counted for God's purpose. Out of Abraham, Israel will be born.
I thought about it and prayed, considering the passage I read. I do not want to go thorough life with a crossed cheque of eternal security of heaven, and count nothing for God. I do not want to think that all of life will be self, will be guarding just against sin but I desire God to prevail over my heart and that my life will reflect His love.
I think I have seen much of myself. Much of how others have conceived Christianity. The bible is not life applications per se. The bible is not a instruction manual per se. Peter says it pertains to life and godliness. What life? The redeemed life. The life that regards that I will love God with all my heart soul and strength.
I shared from Matthew 22 justlast week with campus when a question was posed. There are far greater and most important things of life to consider. God is the God of the living not the dead. We live lives dealing with temporal more than eternal. Christians can be dead man walking when they see Christ as a cross cheque and not count Christ as gain that they may live for His purpose and plan.
How our own heart and the world has deceived, few realised it. I know I am at best still selfish. The end of my ways has not been consistently God. The means of my ways has not been consistently God. The greatest reality in still God. To put confidence in man is fooliness. To place trust in God is wisdom. I thank God for this thought. I saw the bible. I hope I saw my God. God's word is powerful. I saw the life of Abraham brought God's conquering deliverance. Abraham lived for God. God lived in Abraham.
I want my life to count not cross it.
Irony.
Thought through a lot of things this week. I know what triggered it but there I saw the bible on my table one night. I ask myself again about God and if I open the bible I know the bible will tell me about my God.
That is exciting. I have read this month and last extensively on Genesis. I am very intrigued by the life of Abraham again. This time round when I read it, one starking reality was seen. God's over-riding purpose and design of Abraham's life covers Him. Abraham was accounted as righteous because He believed God. Sure Abraham has his failures and moments of sin, yet God's purpose prevail. Abraham did seek God. His heart is for God. Issac's sacrifice proved that. Abraham is a man of faith.
Abraham's life counted for God's purpose. Out of Abraham, Israel will be born.
I thought about it and prayed, considering the passage I read. I do not want to go thorough life with a crossed cheque of eternal security of heaven, and count nothing for God. I do not want to think that all of life will be self, will be guarding just against sin but I desire God to prevail over my heart and that my life will reflect His love.
I think I have seen much of myself. Much of how others have conceived Christianity. The bible is not life applications per se. The bible is not a instruction manual per se. Peter says it pertains to life and godliness. What life? The redeemed life. The life that regards that I will love God with all my heart soul and strength.
I shared from Matthew 22 justlast week with campus when a question was posed. There are far greater and most important things of life to consider. God is the God of the living not the dead. We live lives dealing with temporal more than eternal. Christians can be dead man walking when they see Christ as a cross cheque and not count Christ as gain that they may live for His purpose and plan.
How our own heart and the world has deceived, few realised it. I know I am at best still selfish. The end of my ways has not been consistently God. The means of my ways has not been consistently God. The greatest reality in still God. To put confidence in man is fooliness. To place trust in God is wisdom. I thank God for this thought. I saw the bible. I hope I saw my God. God's word is powerful. I saw the life of Abraham brought God's conquering deliverance. Abraham lived for God. God lived in Abraham.
I want my life to count not cross it.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
窗外
架着车，看着窗外.
时间走着，周围也变了。
来到了麻坡 (Muar),仿佛回到了过去，时间停顿了。
感到历史。感到回光。
风景依旧。太阳在窗外。
麻坡的佳肴依然不变。
就这样过了休闲的二月十四。
照片为最佳的见证。
温心的牛肉面。。。
牛什沙锅，绝世好汤。。
麻坡桥 （Muar Bridge）
清甜猪什汤
Bentayan 熟食中心
麻坡Otak, 货真价实，鱼肉虾肉十足。棒！
日落，也是回家的时刻。
窗外
感谢神。过了美好的一天。
时间走着，周围也变了。
来到了麻坡 (Muar),仿佛回到了过去，时间停顿了。
感到历史。感到回光。
风景依旧。太阳在窗外。
麻坡的佳肴依然不变。
就这样过了休闲的二月十四。
照片为最佳的见证。
温心的牛肉面。。。
牛什沙锅，绝世好汤。。
麻坡桥 （Muar Bridge）
清甜猪什汤
Bentayan 熟食中心
麻坡Otak, 货真价实，鱼肉虾肉十足。棒！
日落，也是回家的时刻。
窗外
感谢神。过了美好的一天。
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Satisfying
Progress report...done..means got progress..
haha..that itself is satisfying. Thank God for the work finished thus far for last week and this week. Quite exhausting it will to rush 3 long nights to churn out data....at least sufficient to carry thru this round.
hope i plan my work better...and make time more well spent...the weeks ahead, I am resolved to do that. Praying for wisdom to manage time well...
trust God's wisdom and grace will make this resolve enabling..
Especially thank campus folks for their faithful prayers. It is a glad thing to realise the family spirtedness by knowing there ia a one another feel towards prayers..of which I am thankful to them and especially to God.
so glad about the goodness of God, I penned a song that is so satisfying as well....hopefully i will be able to sing one day for campus...each of them are like my strength and song in the Lord..Haha..
so glad tonight for grace seen and unseen..Thank God
satisfying..
haha..that itself is satisfying. Thank God for the work finished thus far for last week and this week. Quite exhausting it will to rush 3 long nights to churn out data....at least sufficient to carry thru this round.
hope i plan my work better...and make time more well spent...the weeks ahead, I am resolved to do that. Praying for wisdom to manage time well...
trust God's wisdom and grace will make this resolve enabling..
Especially thank campus folks for their faithful prayers. It is a glad thing to realise the family spirtedness by knowing there ia a one another feel towards prayers..of which I am thankful to them and especially to God.
so glad about the goodness of God, I penned a song that is so satisfying as well....hopefully i will be able to sing one day for campus...each of them are like my strength and song in the Lord..Haha..
so glad tonight for grace seen and unseen..Thank God
satisfying..
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Battleground
There are things you know in your head.
Yet when something happens, what is in your head doesn't translate down to your actions. Or when something happens, it is so instinctive to react in a manner. That it seems almost fixed.
Been terribly disappointed. I believe the hardest battle is the mind. What the mind directs without the act of the will, is letting a free reign of unguarded desires.
The resolve of a person is the character of the person.
Building resolve. Building defences. It is not just the mere reading of God's word. It is mind enablment of guard that trust and call upon an absolutely belief that God has perfect control and wisdom.
Never felt further from knowing the holiness God unless I can be certain that my heart and mind can anchor that God alone is worthy of all my pursuits. That is all. Somehow I find lack. Somehow I find a desire. The conflict battle has always wage.
Paul says of himself, "In me dwell no good thing."
To lose a second of guard could be a gateway towards disaster.
Somehow a mind, heart and soul fixed on God is indeed the hardest thing to do coz all surrounding a redeemed soul is a body of flesh.
Yet the battle must wage with the armour of God.
I hope what I battle in the mind will allow me to be fixed and settled.
The holiness of God is indeed worth the highest pursuit and shall be my sure defense. I must not lose guard.
Without faith it is impossible to please God. There must be scars to your flesh, your mind to do that.
It is war but I must, as Paul tells Timothy, to fight the good fight. So I must fight this battle.
Yet when something happens, what is in your head doesn't translate down to your actions. Or when something happens, it is so instinctive to react in a manner. That it seems almost fixed.
Been terribly disappointed. I believe the hardest battle is the mind. What the mind directs without the act of the will, is letting a free reign of unguarded desires.
The resolve of a person is the character of the person.
Building resolve. Building defences. It is not just the mere reading of God's word. It is mind enablment of guard that trust and call upon an absolutely belief that God has perfect control and wisdom.
Never felt further from knowing the holiness God unless I can be certain that my heart and mind can anchor that God alone is worthy of all my pursuits. That is all. Somehow I find lack. Somehow I find a desire. The conflict battle has always wage.
Paul says of himself, "In me dwell no good thing."
To lose a second of guard could be a gateway towards disaster.
Somehow a mind, heart and soul fixed on God is indeed the hardest thing to do coz all surrounding a redeemed soul is a body of flesh.
Yet the battle must wage with the armour of God.
I hope what I battle in the mind will allow me to be fixed and settled.
The holiness of God is indeed worth the highest pursuit and shall be my sure defense. I must not lose guard.
Without faith it is impossible to please God. There must be scars to your flesh, your mind to do that.
It is war but I must, as Paul tells Timothy, to fight the good fight. So I must fight this battle.
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