I keep asking myself whether I should be upset. A friend you endear yet disappointing in the sense that when you realised it was all inattentive when the actions and replies reveals the meaninglessness of the conversation you have had.
It is regrettable.
At the end of the day, it is not what is said that meant anything, it is what that has been done.
Too much has been taken for granted.
Alas, heavy sense of disappointment but in life, where else can you go but the point of that regret.
It is sad but that's life.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Dolphins
Hector Dolphins at Akoroa, New Zealand. Ain't they cute?...family of 4..the smallest I think is a calf..awesome..
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
一首曲
在寻求一首曲，一份心意和感觉。
也许它在逃避，也许是时间未到。
看到了雨滴在窗外，很多感触。
每滴虽然看起来都很类似，但它不以为然。
雨来的时候，也是希望来临的时刻。
应为可能在寻找的那滴雨就在你面前。
我还在窗后，还没走出去，笔也还未拿起。
我放弃。
也许它在逃避，也许是时间未到。
看到了雨滴在窗外，很多感触。
每滴虽然看起来都很类似，但它不以为然。
雨来的时候，也是希望来临的时刻。
应为可能在寻找的那滴雨就在你面前。
我还在窗后，还没走出去，笔也还未拿起。
我放弃。
Monday, September 13, 2010
When music speaks louder than lyrics
A year has gone since I put pen to a feeling. A song ensues and a beautiful enchanting melody has since been written. And finally it is immortalised into a piano piece...
Aptly - words not spoken, yet the music encapsulate every moment that has transpired the whole year. Its really a lovely piece. Possibly the best melody I have came up with...
And because the song is done up, I wrote another song in response to it.
It has been difficult especailly the recent weeks. Given it much thought.
Simply, it takes 2 to clap and when its only one..sadly and truly..its a slap...u could only do and give so much. After so much, if there is the clap, there isn't the response that is forthcoming, and you release its a slap after slap..its perhaps to know the rap is over.
Just knowing you did your best is all that matters.
I woke this morning, looking at the sun. The music continues and it spoke louder than the year that has gone by. Just five more days...
Aptly - words not spoken, yet the music encapsulate every moment that has transpired the whole year. Its really a lovely piece. Possibly the best melody I have came up with...
And because the song is done up, I wrote another song in response to it.
It has been difficult especailly the recent weeks. Given it much thought.
Simply, it takes 2 to clap and when its only one..sadly and truly..its a slap...u could only do and give so much. After so much, if there is the clap, there isn't the response that is forthcoming, and you release its a slap after slap..its perhaps to know the rap is over.
Just knowing you did your best is all that matters.
I woke this morning, looking at the sun. The music continues and it spoke louder than the year that has gone by. Just five more days...
Friday, August 27, 2010
The weight of expectancy
It is hard when someone promise you so much yet deny the fulfilment of that promise.
Disappointment can sap a person.
You can do only so much and still so much. When the giving stops, the grace stops.
I would never want to stop the grace, but yet in that grace when it is only a direction that is one way, how long could the giving without the disappointment cripples you.
It has been more than a year.
I hvae kept a melody. When I hear again this tune, how much more would the weight of expectancy again cause a crashing reminder.
We are after all nothing.
It is almost time. And its time I call time.
Done so much but it amounts to really nothing.
The weight of expectacy. Alas is only still a weight of expectancy.
Disappointment can sap a person.
You can do only so much and still so much. When the giving stops, the grace stops.
I would never want to stop the grace, but yet in that grace when it is only a direction that is one way, how long could the giving without the disappointment cripples you.
It has been more than a year.
I hvae kept a melody. When I hear again this tune, how much more would the weight of expectancy again cause a crashing reminder.
We are after all nothing.
It is almost time. And its time I call time.
Done so much but it amounts to really nothing.
The weight of expectacy. Alas is only still a weight of expectancy.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Blind spots
I wonder why. But its really not easy to keep forgiving and not feel any tinge of disappointment. Vague as I might write but I guess how long this patience may last. Sigh...
Forgave and keep forgiving. Tough lesson.
Hope I can by His grace keep forgiving....
Forgave and keep forgiving. Tough lesson.
Hope I can by His grace keep forgiving....
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Memory melody
As I hear the melody of a song that I have written over a year, it is the memories of the yesteryear that flashes by.
We can't hold the past, neither we can know the future. But whatever that endears us is a memory that is so dear.
A melody with no words, yet it has inscriptions beyond words.
I wrote this song for purpose. An endering purpose.
A song with words yet without.
Perhaps the best melody I have thought of simply because it was the best memories I had.
We can't hold the past, neither we can know the future. But whatever that endears us is a memory that is so dear.
A melody with no words, yet it has inscriptions beyond words.
I wrote this song for purpose. An endering purpose.
A song with words yet without.
Perhaps the best melody I have thought of simply because it was the best memories I had.
Monday, August 2, 2010
A Letter
Why do I sleep late sometimes and sometimes early. Tonight, I watch a show, titled "letters to God". Moving. Very much so.
Yet looking and reflecting the live that I lived, I guess there are now more regrets. Things not said but hope.
Some things would never be spoken. But letters to God, yeah they find its way to Him.
I wish I could simply say what I want to everyone. Sometimes hold back just because I don't want people to be hurt. To remain protected. Relationships etc..u name it.
But with God, everything I want to say can be a letter to Him.
Yet looking and reflecting the live that I lived, I guess there are now more regrets. Things not said but hope.
Some things would never be spoken. But letters to God, yeah they find its way to Him.
I wish I could simply say what I want to everyone. Sometimes hold back just because I don't want people to be hurt. To remain protected. Relationships etc..u name it.
But with God, everything I want to say can be a letter to Him.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
New Zealand
Well, kinda of disppointed today.
But I will just keep my fingers crossed.
Perhaps this will be my last trip before I leave my job.
The most important thing is not this trip and I know that.
I wish for my friend, a right and best outcome.
That is the most important.
But I will just keep my fingers crossed.
Perhaps this will be my last trip before I leave my job.
The most important thing is not this trip and I know that.
I wish for my friend, a right and best outcome.
That is the most important.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Longer
I wished it lasted longer. But alas. Its always just a window...soon it will be closed.
And i know it is for good.
Sigh.
I wish this night just lasted longer.
And i know it is for good.
Sigh.
I wish this night just lasted longer.
Friday, July 16, 2010
A God-send thought
Seeing things through God's view is the best eye to life.
Romans 8:28 reminded me of that.
Though disappointed, God reminded of me His way is always perfect.
As always, He lifts us up with His unyielding strenght with an everlasting love.
His work is so much more undone, lets not leave things undone and may what we do count for eternity.
Disappointment are aplenty, but God's work are also left aplenty.
So what should I be perturbed?
God help me to see my life through Christ's.
This is my prayer.
Romans 8:28 reminded me of that.
Though disappointed, God reminded of me His way is always perfect.
As always, He lifts us up with His unyielding strenght with an everlasting love.
His work is so much more undone, lets not leave things undone and may what we do count for eternity.
Disappointment are aplenty, but God's work are also left aplenty.
So what should I be perturbed?
God help me to see my life through Christ's.
This is my prayer.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
重写
今天在家架车时，有一些感想。对于《哀》有了一些回忆。
也把歌词改了一些。
表达。表意。
重写也是重温。
路途是经验。街灯的迷茫，可以让我看的更清楚。
哀中有爱，爱中有哀。
重写才能重温。
走了才能再见。
我记得你那泪珠。
它会永种在我心窝。深深的。
也把歌词改了一些。
表达。表意。
重写也是重温。
路途是经验。街灯的迷茫，可以让我看的更清楚。
哀中有爱，爱中有哀。
重写才能重温。
走了才能再见。
我记得你那泪珠。
它会永种在我心窝。深深的。
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
哀
刚写完了一首歌，名<<哀>>。早一个礼拜前，也写了一首<<珍重>>。
这两首歌，我相信总结了我在工作与人之间的故事。
路途已经结束了。是再见的时候。天下没有不散的宴席。
我要走了。有舍不得。但不得不走。
这两首歌，我相信总结了我在工作与人之间的故事。
路途已经结束了。是再见的时候。天下没有不散的宴席。
我要走了。有舍不得。但不得不走。
Monday, June 28, 2010
The broken string
I had an old Yamaha classical guitar. The sound is really crisp and clear,a resounding sound that bring harmony to the hearer.
Alas one string is broken. And one knob to the srring is also broken.
In life, things may be harmonious at one but now no longer. I guess I must learn to put things aside and learn another instrument.
People come and go but when you know you had once a good guitar, who once sound so dear, having a broken string is more than just oh dear.
Perhaps a tune that breaks a heart befits the string that breaks the tune.
Alas one string is broken. And one knob to the srring is also broken.
In life, things may be harmonious at one but now no longer. I guess I must learn to put things aside and learn another instrument.
People come and go but when you know you had once a good guitar, who once sound so dear, having a broken string is more than just oh dear.
Perhaps a tune that breaks a heart befits the string that breaks the tune.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
You can only do so much
Time is getting shorter. I can only do so much. I can't say much. I can only do so much.
And when everything is finally dusted and over, well I hope we will leave with the knowledge that we had celebrated together this life.
You can only do so much. You dun have to say much.
The footprints may be washed away but the imprints on one's life last a life time.
And when everything is finally dusted and over, well I hope we will leave with the knowledge that we had celebrated together this life.
You can only do so much. You dun have to say much.
The footprints may be washed away but the imprints on one's life last a life time.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
The string that tug the heart
In life, there are friends u find that there is a fated affinity.
In life, there are people who pull and tug your heartstrings.
In life, there are people who will have their absence nuture fonder memories.
The rememberance. The decision I have made. I wonder why it is tugging so
heavily this heartstring.
I learn to play the guitar. But to have the heartstring being pulled, it is not learnt, it is felt.
I wish you would say more. I wish I could say more.
And I use strings just to remember more.
In life, there are people who pull and tug your heartstrings.
In life, there are people who will have their absence nuture fonder memories.
The rememberance. The decision I have made. I wonder why it is tugging so
heavily this heartstring.
I learn to play the guitar. But to have the heartstring being pulled, it is not learnt, it is felt.
I wish you would say more. I wish I could say more.
And I use strings just to remember more.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Its over
Just typed my last letter for my Master thesis. The one that my supervisor has edited and I have entered the other stuff..abbreviation, tables, references etc..
Tomorrow I will submit to my examiner and I can file for GRADUATION!!!
It has been 3 long years. Finally.
God is faithful. Thank God for seeing me true.
And my dear friends who has provided support all these years. Thank God for each one of u...
Yeah!
Tomorrow I will submit to my examiner and I can file for GRADUATION!!!
It has been 3 long years. Finally.
God is faithful. Thank God for seeing me true.
And my dear friends who has provided support all these years. Thank God for each one of u...
Yeah!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
When truth is no longer the foundationn
Today i felt very ashen. A feeling that i didnt have for a long while.
It was because I never in my wildest imagination see the total decadence of depraved humanity.
When the basis of a Christian's accusation is not founded on truth, then the accusor, the master of lies is the devil himself.
I became a victim of that. Not one but two.
It is sad. Grieving and grieveous.
The heart to believe is dead. Dead and trespassed beyond comprehension. I could not excuse it. I simply can't.
Why forgiveness isnt the issue. Truth is. God is.
The highest court on earth is our conscience. Man cannot judge another man's conscience. Only God can.
I hope I can say I am clear.
I feel grief when God is the only recourse of justice. It meant blindness has envelope the whole situation and only God can shed light.
This incident is as such.
It was because I never in my wildest imagination see the total decadence of depraved humanity.
When the basis of a Christian's accusation is not founded on truth, then the accusor, the master of lies is the devil himself.
I became a victim of that. Not one but two.
It is sad. Grieving and grieveous.
The heart to believe is dead. Dead and trespassed beyond comprehension. I could not excuse it. I simply can't.
Why forgiveness isnt the issue. Truth is. God is.
The highest court on earth is our conscience. Man cannot judge another man's conscience. Only God can.
I hope I can say I am clear.
I feel grief when God is the only recourse of justice. It meant blindness has envelope the whole situation and only God can shed light.
This incident is as such.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Alone
Perhaps being alone isnt lonely when u play that chord again and again.
Being exceptional.
There is a recurring tune. One that was first heard in a plane one September in 2009.
I have penned those words. I have wrote the tune. Yet it is song best remembered without the lyrics. I have placed all the lyrics in the tune and so the tune speaks yet silent
Isnt that true. A lot of things in life and gone silently.
Yes I will regret. But at lesat if it cause hurt, I would be hurt the most.
Being exceptional.
There is a recurring tune. One that was first heard in a plane one September in 2009.
I have penned those words. I have wrote the tune. Yet it is song best remembered without the lyrics. I have placed all the lyrics in the tune and so the tune speaks yet silent
Isnt that true. A lot of things in life and gone silently.
Yes I will regret. But at lesat if it cause hurt, I would be hurt the most.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Practical
Keep being told to be practical.
Is there anything wrong in being idealistic? Haha.
Yesterday was driving home and it was really late at night. Witness an accident right in front of my eyes. See one car filtering 3 lanes and drifting right into the car in front of me. Banged..gone. I jammed my brakes, and worried the car behind will slammed into my back.
I was on the speeding lane on CTE. Thankfully nothing happened. Thank God. I was still alert.
Anyway this incident tell me that in life, nothing will go smooth. Things do happen. Ideal or not. Being practical is only 1 means of viewing life. Yup, its logical and perhaps sensible but I feel no compulsion to do things that I should when I don't. I might be getting advanced in years but it should no be the reason why I should waiver and deviate what I have initially set out to holdfast to.
I need convictions. I need resolve. There is no reason not to wait and hope. The thing is that I must know I am really hoping in God.
Being pratical. Does that mean a lack of trust in God.
That is the greater dilenmma.
Is there anything wrong in being idealistic? Haha.
Yesterday was driving home and it was really late at night. Witness an accident right in front of my eyes. See one car filtering 3 lanes and drifting right into the car in front of me. Banged..gone. I jammed my brakes, and worried the car behind will slammed into my back.
I was on the speeding lane on CTE. Thankfully nothing happened. Thank God. I was still alert.
Anyway this incident tell me that in life, nothing will go smooth. Things do happen. Ideal or not. Being practical is only 1 means of viewing life. Yup, its logical and perhaps sensible but I feel no compulsion to do things that I should when I don't. I might be getting advanced in years but it should no be the reason why I should waiver and deviate what I have initially set out to holdfast to.
I need convictions. I need resolve. There is no reason not to wait and hope. The thing is that I must know I am really hoping in God.
Being pratical. Does that mean a lack of trust in God.
That is the greater dilenmma.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
What a Night
its strange. but i think i know why.
i understand why.
after next week, i will put a stop. erractic it is.
flustered. sigh..but in life, things are simple and clear and its probably better u understand than try not to.
i know what it all means, just that i have not learnt to accept all that there is.
i heard once, I don't have to ask again.
i understand why.
after next week, i will put a stop. erractic it is.
flustered. sigh..but in life, things are simple and clear and its probably better u understand than try not to.
i know what it all means, just that i have not learnt to accept all that there is.
i heard once, I don't have to ask again.
Monday, May 17, 2010
The weight and the value of God
If I may pause just for that moment to consider and think that every life actions and thoughts boil down just to this.
The weight and the value of God. The root of our being. The core of our heart. Be it be bitterness or forgiveness. Be it be contemptment or contentment. Be it be frustration or trust. It all comes down to this. The weight and value of God.
I know for some of us. God is of no bearing neither one we are conscious at all. We are careless, irreverential and possibly of no desire to think, neither toward God, a person that we seek to please neither to glorify. We sought to love self and the things of the world. There are some who outward deny God but the more common are those who have a form of godliness but denying the power.
I have spoken to "believing" Christians as Christ has spoken to "believing" Jews in John 8. But as you speak the oracles of God or engage in life simplicity, you somehow get a an overwhelm character of a person who is pre-occupy with self rather than a penchant for the things of God.
I feel that is sad. I consider the weight and the value of God. Paul told Tim in 2 Tim 2:2 to impart truth to those that are faithful.
Perhaps I have done wrong. I wonder why studying of Romans 2 somehow has disturbed my settlement of sharing the word with all diligence. I hope it is simply God telling me something important. Abandonment is not a bad thing. Be focus on the faithful that God may see that His work gets done.
Why have an unconverted ministry where the faithful are neglected. It is far more important to see clay be moulded and moved then for the hardened to be shaped for unless they changed, they remain unconverted.
I consider this is grave and a thought that seriously need a sobering courage and prayer that only God can give that boldness.
Am I right or wrong. Only God can vindicate the path to take.
The weight and the value of God. The root of our being. The core of our heart. Be it be bitterness or forgiveness. Be it be contemptment or contentment. Be it be frustration or trust. It all comes down to this. The weight and value of God.
I know for some of us. God is of no bearing neither one we are conscious at all. We are careless, irreverential and possibly of no desire to think, neither toward God, a person that we seek to please neither to glorify. We sought to love self and the things of the world. There are some who outward deny God but the more common are those who have a form of godliness but denying the power.
I have spoken to "believing" Christians as Christ has spoken to "believing" Jews in John 8. But as you speak the oracles of God or engage in life simplicity, you somehow get a an overwhelm character of a person who is pre-occupy with self rather than a penchant for the things of God.
I feel that is sad. I consider the weight and the value of God. Paul told Tim in 2 Tim 2:2 to impart truth to those that are faithful.
Perhaps I have done wrong. I wonder why studying of Romans 2 somehow has disturbed my settlement of sharing the word with all diligence. I hope it is simply God telling me something important. Abandonment is not a bad thing. Be focus on the faithful that God may see that His work gets done.
Why have an unconverted ministry where the faithful are neglected. It is far more important to see clay be moulded and moved then for the hardened to be shaped for unless they changed, they remain unconverted.
I consider this is grave and a thought that seriously need a sobering courage and prayer that only God can give that boldness.
Am I right or wrong. Only God can vindicate the path to take.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
What's wrong?
When I read Romans 2 again and again and taught it twice to 2 groups of people, I realise what is true of the Jews is actually true for me and I believe for many.
The work of God's grace. The work of God's word would fluorish only in a heart that desires to love God.
I feel a deep unmovable hardening of heart of some. I wish I hadn't felt that. Because if that is true, then the words that echo from John the baptist, from Christ our Lord and Paul would be true. From brood of vipers, to an unbelieving generation to eventually James who called the Jewish believers adulterers, having a love for the world, that the Word of God has no more an effect on you.
What conclusion can I then make in light of scriptures. It is a frightening thought. It is.
How many are truly saved?
Conscience and morality?
God's word working in our heart? Or our heart are harden that we no longer respond to the word of God. If it is only hardening, then we are at best a unbelieving Jew.
Must I concede that is true? Who would have a zeal for thy house?
Or we just soothing our religious conscience.
God forbid this be true. But if it is, can we even be sober to repent? I dread to think one more second further. God help!
The work of God's grace. The work of God's word would fluorish only in a heart that desires to love God.
I feel a deep unmovable hardening of heart of some. I wish I hadn't felt that. Because if that is true, then the words that echo from John the baptist, from Christ our Lord and Paul would be true. From brood of vipers, to an unbelieving generation to eventually James who called the Jewish believers adulterers, having a love for the world, that the Word of God has no more an effect on you.
What conclusion can I then make in light of scriptures. It is a frightening thought. It is.
How many are truly saved?
Conscience and morality?
God's word working in our heart? Or our heart are harden that we no longer respond to the word of God. If it is only hardening, then we are at best a unbelieving Jew.
Must I concede that is true? Who would have a zeal for thy house?
Or we just soothing our religious conscience.
God forbid this be true. But if it is, can we even be sober to repent? I dread to think one more second further. God help!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
A petal or rose
Macro or micro. Strumming or plucking.
Life has many many decisions to make. Many.
The heart has many persuasions. You would perhaps not make any decisions because being ruffled isnt the best thought. Change is always resisted. Resistance also stop change.
Decisions and more decisions. Looking at a rose petal is nice. Looking at a rose is also nice. Our view however are often limited.
I like to think God's view are above ours. And he knows every outcome of a man who love His heart, love the beauty that awaits all of us.
He has the rose. A garden panoroma of it.
I just need to trust Him to take my next step.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
You have heard of old
21 “You have heard that it was said to those of old, ‘You shall not murder,[a] and whoever murders will be in danger of the judgment.’ 22 But I say to you that whoever is angry with his brother without a cause[b] shall be in danger of the judgment. And whoever says to his brother, ‘Raca!’ shall be in danger of the council. But whoever says, ‘You fool!’ shall be in danger of hell fire. Matthew 5:21-22
An incident happened a few months back that stirred my mind to remember this passage. A friend of mine said this to me that the reason why she is dating an unbeliever is God love the person like I love the person. My answer is conversely not focus on the man. But rather, do you love God?
Paul rightly said...that whoever confess Jesus as Lord is saved... Lord
Has the bible said of old that God love the world...and He is not Lord? Conversely that is not true. The outcome of God loving the world and saving is that we sin no more as an atitude of life. The healing of the infirmed man in John 5 had Jesus telling him, "Go and sin no more."
I don't think what my friend said is unfamiliar to most. An attention of God's love on us makes history occurs on man. I konw the bible centre on Christ as history. And for if ourr heart is on loving Christ, we are not only historically right but God-centred. Colossians make it excitingly clear,
" 16 For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and for Him. 17 And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist. 18 And He is the head of the body, the church, who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in all things He may have the preeminence." Colossians 1:16-17.
The Lordship of Christ makes a simple response. God love us to have us loving Him back. My friend's response sadly, did not know the love of God in its purity.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
What a tragedy.
An incident happened a few months back that stirred my mind to remember this passage. A friend of mine said this to me that the reason why she is dating an unbeliever is God love the person like I love the person. My answer is conversely not focus on the man. But rather, do you love God?
Paul rightly said...that whoever confess Jesus as Lord is saved... Lord
Has the bible said of old that God love the world...and He is not Lord? Conversely that is not true. The outcome of God loving the world and saving is that we sin no more as an atitude of life. The healing of the infirmed man in John 5 had Jesus telling him, "Go and sin no more."
I don't think what my friend said is unfamiliar to most. An attention of God's love on us makes history occurs on man. I konw the bible centre on Christ as history. And for if ourr heart is on loving Christ, we are not only historically right but God-centred. Colossians make it excitingly clear,
" 16 For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and for Him. 17 And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist. 18 And He is the head of the body, the church, who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in all things He may have the preeminence." Colossians 1:16-17.
The Lordship of Christ makes a simple response. God love us to have us loving Him back. My friend's response sadly, did not know the love of God in its purity.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
What a tragedy.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Time is almost up
Time fast clicks away.
Life pass by and vanishes.
A moment never stay.
People come and perishes.
To think time has no friends
Is to be a stranger to history
We have hope for future
but let us know time is never up
We grow old with time
We see age passes by
Let me say time is almost us
By knowing age catches up
Life pass by and vanishes.
A moment never stay.
People come and perishes.
To think time has no friends
Is to be a stranger to history
We have hope for future
but let us know time is never up
We grow old with time
We see age passes by
Let me say time is almost us
By knowing age catches up
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Being judge by God and not by man
12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account. Heb 4:12-13
3I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. 4My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. 5Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God. 1 Cor 4:3-5
I realise a very important thing yesterday. I have thought through it. And this are the verses I believe God has pointed me to stand on.
No man is perfect in righteousness and I thank God I am given righteousness instead. The two passage clearly says the clarity of God in judging our intents and our motives. And inwardly, we have a conscience that either accuses us or excuses us. We need our conscience to be invariantly connected to God and that is by the Word of God.
We do not need tirades of our own formed up opinions to be our mind bogglers where our attention truly must be in the courts of heaven where God is the perfect judge of all things for He is the only one that knows all things.
Thank God for His Word that made it plain and simple.
The incident I faced today further resolved the point. We ought to be diligent student of the Word for if our conscience be good accusers or excusers of ourselves, we have had to have this conscience saturated by the Word of God. Not emotions, not opinions, they fail miserably.
Let your life by guided by the Word and you know when you are in that pursuit, you are being judge by God for His Word abides forever.
We really need this.
3I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. 4My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. 5Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God. 1 Cor 4:3-5
I realise a very important thing yesterday. I have thought through it. And this are the verses I believe God has pointed me to stand on.
No man is perfect in righteousness and I thank God I am given righteousness instead. The two passage clearly says the clarity of God in judging our intents and our motives. And inwardly, we have a conscience that either accuses us or excuses us. We need our conscience to be invariantly connected to God and that is by the Word of God.
We do not need tirades of our own formed up opinions to be our mind bogglers where our attention truly must be in the courts of heaven where God is the perfect judge of all things for He is the only one that knows all things.
Thank God for His Word that made it plain and simple.
The incident I faced today further resolved the point. We ought to be diligent student of the Word for if our conscience be good accusers or excusers of ourselves, we have had to have this conscience saturated by the Word of God. Not emotions, not opinions, they fail miserably.
Let your life by guided by the Word and you know when you are in that pursuit, you are being judge by God for His Word abides forever.
We really need this.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Tiring
When you walk that short distance and you do not feel like walking an inch further, you know besides tireness, it is dread.
You know you need that spark to ignite the dousing smoke.
You know you are in need of the sound of not coming shower, but a shower of blessing.
And when all is but dried up, you need to look for the next water hole.
And when you are all but tired, you know rest is ever more a need than before.
I am tired.
A dew would be enough.
You know you need that spark to ignite the dousing smoke.
You know you are in need of the sound of not coming shower, but a shower of blessing.
And when all is but dried up, you need to look for the next water hole.
And when you are all but tired, you know rest is ever more a need than before.
I am tired.
A dew would be enough.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Suicide
Yesterday, I reached home around 640pm from my workplace. I have just collected my car from the workshop. Did some minor repairs to my floor board.
I didn't expect a typically normal day to turn so unusual. The police cars, ambulance had surrounded my block. I saw some grim face policemen. I went up from my lift, and peer below the ground from the stairway when I reached my floor. I regret this decision. Someone had committed suicide by jumping. The sight is terrible. The head must have landed first on impact. I would not describe what I saw. And I do hope that with time, this image greatly diminished.
Today, I read in the Chinese papers, the cause of the suicide was chronic depression. The victim, a 40 something woman who have gone missing for a day. A church member had just asked me a few days ago about what is depression and just a day earlier, Pastor had preached about lostness and how Leslie Cheng had committed suicide the same way.
I wonder hard at how people could commit suicide. I was preparing for bible study for Sunday. I couldn't help but see Christ on the cross that day. Depression is a result of sin. The guilt of sin. The despair of sin. The hopelessness of sin. I was studying Romans Chapter 1 and 2 in preparation. And what really struck me is really the gravity and how debased the human mind can get.
I know that depression is a real thing. I have been sad before. But I guess I never lost hope in God. This morning, I saw joss paper and incense. The night before, the images that flashed through the night didn't allow me to sleep well. I knew the victim is not a Christian.
And this morning when I gave the bible study, I asked, Does anyone of us know how ugly sin is? Does anyone know why Christ must suffer many things that even His death is ugly. Because sin is ugly. I saw it for myself the day before. You know we never quite like to stay and think about the ugliness of sin. Man has no natural desire to see tragic, gruesome, gory things. And I can relate to Paul when he paints adject hopelessness of man, Jew or Gentile, but the reality of it is, sin is ugly. Death is ugly. Jesus wouldn't have wept if it is a beautiful thing.
And I know why we often neglect to declare the sinfulness of sin to the sinner. The gospel of God's love can never be fully grasped till the gallows of sin be told in plain, unminced manner.
I still have the images in me.
I watched the Passion of the Christ sometime back. And I still remember the images of Christ on the cross. But I remember more fondly, the image of the glorified ressurected Christ.
Christ is to be adored. There is beauty in the conquest of sin.
He brought many sons to glory.
He is the firstfruit.
Blessed Easter.
I didn't expect a typically normal day to turn so unusual. The police cars, ambulance had surrounded my block. I saw some grim face policemen. I went up from my lift, and peer below the ground from the stairway when I reached my floor. I regret this decision. Someone had committed suicide by jumping. The sight is terrible. The head must have landed first on impact. I would not describe what I saw. And I do hope that with time, this image greatly diminished.
Today, I read in the Chinese papers, the cause of the suicide was chronic depression. The victim, a 40 something woman who have gone missing for a day. A church member had just asked me a few days ago about what is depression and just a day earlier, Pastor had preached about lostness and how Leslie Cheng had committed suicide the same way.
I wonder hard at how people could commit suicide. I was preparing for bible study for Sunday. I couldn't help but see Christ on the cross that day. Depression is a result of sin. The guilt of sin. The despair of sin. The hopelessness of sin. I was studying Romans Chapter 1 and 2 in preparation. And what really struck me is really the gravity and how debased the human mind can get.
I know that depression is a real thing. I have been sad before. But I guess I never lost hope in God. This morning, I saw joss paper and incense. The night before, the images that flashed through the night didn't allow me to sleep well. I knew the victim is not a Christian.
And this morning when I gave the bible study, I asked, Does anyone of us know how ugly sin is? Does anyone know why Christ must suffer many things that even His death is ugly. Because sin is ugly. I saw it for myself the day before. You know we never quite like to stay and think about the ugliness of sin. Man has no natural desire to see tragic, gruesome, gory things. And I can relate to Paul when he paints adject hopelessness of man, Jew or Gentile, but the reality of it is, sin is ugly. Death is ugly. Jesus wouldn't have wept if it is a beautiful thing.
And I know why we often neglect to declare the sinfulness of sin to the sinner. The gospel of God's love can never be fully grasped till the gallows of sin be told in plain, unminced manner.
I still have the images in me.
I watched the Passion of the Christ sometime back. And I still remember the images of Christ on the cross. But I remember more fondly, the image of the glorified ressurected Christ.
Christ is to be adored. There is beauty in the conquest of sin.
He brought many sons to glory.
He is the firstfruit.
Blessed Easter.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Real convictions
A test requires an outcome. I think that is when true convictions are revealed.
I have witness too many contradictions rather than convictions.
I fear when I put to the test, I would also be contradictions.
Truly it is grace that keeps us.
Unless I tested, would I know that I have contrdictions rather than convictions.
It has been a month since I saw a contradiciton in someone life.
I have been tested on this before. I considered and prayed and decidely saturated my mind with scriptures and overcome it through the grace of God. Didnt make the right decision at the start but God's grace overcome the indifferent thinking I had.
I never saw a reason for God's love till I saw a reason for God's judgement.
When love and mercy meets, I know I can't take grace at love's expense.
Living right is because His righteousnes and nothing more.
I don't bargain for God's righteousness when He doesnt count my tresspasses towards Him. I was given. That must my attitude towards life. I dun ask for grace to sin. I sin not becuase grace was given.
Convictions and not contradictions.
I plead my soul to obey for obedience is better than sacrifice.
I have witness too many contradictions rather than convictions.
I fear when I put to the test, I would also be contradictions.
Truly it is grace that keeps us.
Unless I tested, would I know that I have contrdictions rather than convictions.
It has been a month since I saw a contradiciton in someone life.
I have been tested on this before. I considered and prayed and decidely saturated my mind with scriptures and overcome it through the grace of God. Didnt make the right decision at the start but God's grace overcome the indifferent thinking I had.
I never saw a reason for God's love till I saw a reason for God's judgement.
When love and mercy meets, I know I can't take grace at love's expense.
Living right is because His righteousnes and nothing more.
I don't bargain for God's righteousness when He doesnt count my tresspasses towards Him. I was given. That must my attitude towards life. I dun ask for grace to sin. I sin not becuase grace was given.
Convictions and not contradictions.
I plead my soul to obey for obedience is better than sacrifice.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Wish could abandon all and go
it seems so expedient...
to start everything again...
a desperate despair...
would there and could there be a restart?
to start everything again...
a desperate despair...
would there and could there be a restart?
Sunday, March 21, 2010
God moves..
God answers prayer. There is no doubt about that.
And He moves in mysterious way...divine providence.
I earnestly hope I see more of His hand moving. Sometimes I think I am guilty of prejury. And at times, I dun think I am thankful enough of the goodness that He has bestowed.
The Chinese girls bible study on Sunday has more new people. While Dinghui and Tianren has enrolled in the ID course and opted to go for 2nd service, God has brought in 2 other newcomers to join the bible study. There are finding the bible studies helpful. Thank God for that. Hope they will grow in the Lord. Yuyun has been a blessing. And I pray that the bible study will fortify their faith in God.
Wang Wei has been attending church for some time now. He is Yuyun's friend. He heard the gospel a couple of times but would want to take time to consider Christ as being the true God. Do pray for Him that God will dispel the doubt in him and that he will come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ.
Jingbo has been coming to church on and off. His supervisor is very strict with his school hours. I do hope the couple of church coming and the one bible study he has attended will help him to ponder the reality of Christ and the need for divine forgiveness. Pray for him that God will move in his heart to desire to be saved.
Ken has professed Christ last wednesday. By providence, he was the only attendee for the YMCA guitar clasa as the rest were on term break and decided not to come. We had our lesson and after that supper. Ken enquire about the faith and we shared with him what Christianity is about. And at the end, he came to pray and accepted Christ as his Lord and Saviour. He is from a Buddhist family and has not been granted permission to come to church. Do pray for him that he would be able to come to church. We have agreed to have a short bible class after wednesday guitar class. Hope he grow in Christ and his faith be strenghtened under such trying circumstances.
My colleague has also attended the ID class. Quite concerned about her growth, and hopefully the class will help her. Also hope that she find a suitable fellowship group to be part of. My other 2 friends have also decided to join FABRICs. Changing times ahead indeed.
For campus, there are quite a few newcomers. That is good. I do hope among the newcomers, faithful ones will be raised. God always move in a few good men. I do hope that I see men or women with grace and faith being revealed. The Romans bible studies is a monumental book to study. And I hope by the grace of God, this book will be completed. It is going to be tremendous when this bible studies is complete. It is going to life-changing if God breathes power and draws heart towards Godly sorrow that leads to repetance. This book has depth and impart breath in the life of the believer. This is my prayer that God will raise people to respond to the message of the book of Romans. May campus be the preparation ground for us to do battle for God. This is what I hope to see. By the grace of God, it will be done.
My work is piling like crazy. I dunno how I could survive all of this. I echo the cries of Paul though he is always in want, in need. He says this assurance that he can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. He also said that his God shall supply my needs according to His riches. I do hope it come to pass that God will show Himself strong.
Life is not easy. But with Christ in the boat, as the song says, we can smile at the storm.
The tide is changing. God is moving. I am still praying for my future direction. I have an inkling what I like to do. And when God moves, I hope I also move.
God is good. He is. If you read this blog, I hope you join alongside and pray. Thanks.
And He moves in mysterious way...divine providence.
I earnestly hope I see more of His hand moving. Sometimes I think I am guilty of prejury. And at times, I dun think I am thankful enough of the goodness that He has bestowed.
The Chinese girls bible study on Sunday has more new people. While Dinghui and Tianren has enrolled in the ID course and opted to go for 2nd service, God has brought in 2 other newcomers to join the bible study. There are finding the bible studies helpful. Thank God for that. Hope they will grow in the Lord. Yuyun has been a blessing. And I pray that the bible study will fortify their faith in God.
Wang Wei has been attending church for some time now. He is Yuyun's friend. He heard the gospel a couple of times but would want to take time to consider Christ as being the true God. Do pray for Him that God will dispel the doubt in him and that he will come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ.
Jingbo has been coming to church on and off. His supervisor is very strict with his school hours. I do hope the couple of church coming and the one bible study he has attended will help him to ponder the reality of Christ and the need for divine forgiveness. Pray for him that God will move in his heart to desire to be saved.
Ken has professed Christ last wednesday. By providence, he was the only attendee for the YMCA guitar clasa as the rest were on term break and decided not to come. We had our lesson and after that supper. Ken enquire about the faith and we shared with him what Christianity is about. And at the end, he came to pray and accepted Christ as his Lord and Saviour. He is from a Buddhist family and has not been granted permission to come to church. Do pray for him that he would be able to come to church. We have agreed to have a short bible class after wednesday guitar class. Hope he grow in Christ and his faith be strenghtened under such trying circumstances.
My colleague has also attended the ID class. Quite concerned about her growth, and hopefully the class will help her. Also hope that she find a suitable fellowship group to be part of. My other 2 friends have also decided to join FABRICs. Changing times ahead indeed.
For campus, there are quite a few newcomers. That is good. I do hope among the newcomers, faithful ones will be raised. God always move in a few good men. I do hope that I see men or women with grace and faith being revealed. The Romans bible studies is a monumental book to study. And I hope by the grace of God, this book will be completed. It is going to be tremendous when this bible studies is complete. It is going to life-changing if God breathes power and draws heart towards Godly sorrow that leads to repetance. This book has depth and impart breath in the life of the believer. This is my prayer that God will raise people to respond to the message of the book of Romans. May campus be the preparation ground for us to do battle for God. This is what I hope to see. By the grace of God, it will be done.
My work is piling like crazy. I dunno how I could survive all of this. I echo the cries of Paul though he is always in want, in need. He says this assurance that he can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. He also said that his God shall supply my needs according to His riches. I do hope it come to pass that God will show Himself strong.
Life is not easy. But with Christ in the boat, as the song says, we can smile at the storm.
The tide is changing. God is moving. I am still praying for my future direction. I have an inkling what I like to do. And when God moves, I hope I also move.
God is good. He is. If you read this blog, I hope you join alongside and pray. Thanks.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Heart of the gospel
16 Thus says the LORD:
“ Stand in the ways and see,
And ask for the old paths, where the good way is,
And walk in it;
Then you will find rest for your souls.
But they said, ‘We will not walk in it.’
Jer 6:16
A reprobate generation needs an awakening of sobriety to realise the true gospel. Israel is of no exception for the God of mercy through His prophet warns ever repeatedly to remember the old path, the path of a faithful generation that obeyed truth and had the favor of God with them.
I have embarked again a journey of discovery. Reading the book of Romans have been refreshing, in preparing for the bible study. I have also studied a topic for months now on worship and is still searching the scriptures and reading. The conclusion i have made is clear. Men who loved the truth would testify that apart from truth there is no worship. Apart from the Spirit of truth, there cannot be worship. Worship doesn't produce truth neither the spirit of God. It is truth and the spirit of God that produces worship.
So I realise the centrality of Christianity (of course Christ is the centre) but with the bible as the source of divine revelation, truth, the word of God takes precedance over everything. This is why I beleive, apart from the bible, the right understanding of everything pertaining to God and consequently, life and godliness would not be proper.
What is the non-negotiables of a church? If Christ says He will build His church and the gates of hades will not prevail, then we have to put our attention to the call. Christ told Peter 2 important lessons. One on the church, the other being to feed the flock. I dun see a difference in tying the two because Paul told Timothy the same, that the church is to be "if I am delayed, you will know how people ought to conduct themselves in God's household, which is the church of the living God, the pillar and foundation of the truth." 1 Tim 3:16.
Woah. The church of the living God, the pillar and foundation of truth. I think its mandated. Paul often told Timothy, a pastor in the Ephesus church to be careful in rightly divide the Word. I think Paul knew the importance for it is the Word of God that is the engine of the church. How we worship, how we conduct ourselves, how we do ministry is formed by the Word. The core of the church, the blaze of the church, the witness of the church is through a deep and thoughtful preaching of the Word and it requires the man to be a Spriit-filled man, who is God-fearing, knowing he handles the Word of life. To be skilled in dividing the Word.
I don't know how many of us really takes a serious view of that. Acts 17 says the noble Bereans hearing Paul preached would search the scriptures to see whether they are so.
This generation is turning sensuous. It is not a generation of yesteryears. The magnitude and multitude of sins prevalent says that lawlessness is at work..and harder. The sins that we read of yesteryear are petty compared to what we read about today. The church regard for truth and a reverential and thoughtful understanding have been replaced by doctrines that tickles the ear. The counsel of God's truth have been constricted to texts that exponded plently of grace, love and mercy. When would be the last time, we heard of wrath, judgement, thirsting of righteousness and holiness? When do you hear the gospel of Christ when He healed the lame, the blind, the adulteress and telling them, "Go and sin no more." We have place believe on Christ and you are are forever saved kind of mentality. That is not the gospel. Christ healed 10 lepers and only one He said..turn to Christ to say a gratitude expression of Thanks was the only one that is truly saved.
Whoever wants to examine again the gospel? Whoever wants to examine the truth? Whoever wants to study true worship again? Don't just jump onto the bandwagon for the sake of doing so.
Examine the scriptures and see whether there is right doing. Truth is timeless. Culture changes. Truth still is timeless.
I think I have exhausted my mental anguish thinking of the decadence of how things are going. Perhaps battle weary but then I have done nothing.
I write this to hopefully to awake ourselves to what Jude says in verse 3 of contending for truth. This generation needs truth. We have turn sensusous. Godliness isn't the in thing. This is true. Think about your lifestyle, your thoughts, your pleasure and you know this thought of Godliness isn't something we endear.
I do hope that I will echo the answer God gave Elijah when he thought he is last faithful remnant that God said to Elijah that He has kept 7000 from bowing to Baal. God keeps the faithful simply God is faithful.
Let us then, discover truth, live out the truth for one sake. For God's sake. For only in this, He will be glorified. That is the truth.
“ Stand in the ways and see,
And ask for the old paths, where the good way is,
And walk in it;
Then you will find rest for your souls.
But they said, ‘We will not walk in it.’
Jer 6:16
A reprobate generation needs an awakening of sobriety to realise the true gospel. Israel is of no exception for the God of mercy through His prophet warns ever repeatedly to remember the old path, the path of a faithful generation that obeyed truth and had the favor of God with them.
I have embarked again a journey of discovery. Reading the book of Romans have been refreshing, in preparing for the bible study. I have also studied a topic for months now on worship and is still searching the scriptures and reading. The conclusion i have made is clear. Men who loved the truth would testify that apart from truth there is no worship. Apart from the Spirit of truth, there cannot be worship. Worship doesn't produce truth neither the spirit of God. It is truth and the spirit of God that produces worship.
So I realise the centrality of Christianity (of course Christ is the centre) but with the bible as the source of divine revelation, truth, the word of God takes precedance over everything. This is why I beleive, apart from the bible, the right understanding of everything pertaining to God and consequently, life and godliness would not be proper.
What is the non-negotiables of a church? If Christ says He will build His church and the gates of hades will not prevail, then we have to put our attention to the call. Christ told Peter 2 important lessons. One on the church, the other being to feed the flock. I dun see a difference in tying the two because Paul told Timothy the same, that the church is to be "if I am delayed, you will know how people ought to conduct themselves in God's household, which is the church of the living God, the pillar and foundation of the truth." 1 Tim 3:16.
Woah. The church of the living God, the pillar and foundation of truth. I think its mandated. Paul often told Timothy, a pastor in the Ephesus church to be careful in rightly divide the Word. I think Paul knew the importance for it is the Word of God that is the engine of the church. How we worship, how we conduct ourselves, how we do ministry is formed by the Word. The core of the church, the blaze of the church, the witness of the church is through a deep and thoughtful preaching of the Word and it requires the man to be a Spriit-filled man, who is God-fearing, knowing he handles the Word of life. To be skilled in dividing the Word.
I don't know how many of us really takes a serious view of that. Acts 17 says the noble Bereans hearing Paul preached would search the scriptures to see whether they are so.
This generation is turning sensuous. It is not a generation of yesteryears. The magnitude and multitude of sins prevalent says that lawlessness is at work..and harder. The sins that we read of yesteryear are petty compared to what we read about today. The church regard for truth and a reverential and thoughtful understanding have been replaced by doctrines that tickles the ear. The counsel of God's truth have been constricted to texts that exponded plently of grace, love and mercy. When would be the last time, we heard of wrath, judgement, thirsting of righteousness and holiness? When do you hear the gospel of Christ when He healed the lame, the blind, the adulteress and telling them, "Go and sin no more." We have place believe on Christ and you are are forever saved kind of mentality. That is not the gospel. Christ healed 10 lepers and only one He said..turn to Christ to say a gratitude expression of Thanks was the only one that is truly saved.
Whoever wants to examine again the gospel? Whoever wants to examine the truth? Whoever wants to study true worship again? Don't just jump onto the bandwagon for the sake of doing so.
Examine the scriptures and see whether there is right doing. Truth is timeless. Culture changes. Truth still is timeless.
I think I have exhausted my mental anguish thinking of the decadence of how things are going. Perhaps battle weary but then I have done nothing.
I write this to hopefully to awake ourselves to what Jude says in verse 3 of contending for truth. This generation needs truth. We have turn sensusous. Godliness isn't the in thing. This is true. Think about your lifestyle, your thoughts, your pleasure and you know this thought of Godliness isn't something we endear.
I do hope that I will echo the answer God gave Elijah when he thought he is last faithful remnant that God said to Elijah that He has kept 7000 from bowing to Baal. God keeps the faithful simply God is faithful.
Let us then, discover truth, live out the truth for one sake. For God's sake. For only in this, He will be glorified. That is the truth.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Tired
been a tiring week...feeling worn..easily my eyes twitch...and I feel so drained..
been encouraged by a few things yet discouraged by even more things..
sometimes I wish i could go to Christ's bossom and end everything that is here..heaven is a far better place..definitely
i do realise that God's strength is ever so needful..for me to endure till ilfe's journey end, except for God as my strength..I dun think I can endure even one second.
the joy of the Lord be my strength...
been encouraged by a few things yet discouraged by even more things..
sometimes I wish i could go to Christ's bossom and end everything that is here..heaven is a far better place..definitely
i do realise that God's strength is ever so needful..for me to endure till ilfe's journey end, except for God as my strength..I dun think I can endure even one second.
the joy of the Lord be my strength...
Saturday, March 13, 2010
ECP Catch Report
hmm...not as good as last week but manage to witness someone (not me :() who caught a huge stingray...haha..though didnt manage to catch one myself..at least someone is happy..
manage to catch a rabbit fish though...this is a new year fish..usually abundant in Feburary in local waters so I am surprised to get one...dining size..so still very happy..
today it rained..though catch would be good..but just 10 over fish..not as good as last week, but nevertheless had fun..just got cold and miserable and drenched at one point..but glad i wore an adidas climate cool...dry in an instant when the sun was up.. :)
stacey and justin also come and try their hand at fishing..
on the whole, thank God for a good day of fishing. He is good.
My biggest catch for the day - a rabbit fish
A few good fish...enuf for dinner..
A huge sting ray - great for bbqing..haha
Huge ray..one day i must also try to catch one.. ;p
manage to catch a rabbit fish though...this is a new year fish..usually abundant in Feburary in local waters so I am surprised to get one...dining size..so still very happy..
today it rained..though catch would be good..but just 10 over fish..not as good as last week, but nevertheless had fun..just got cold and miserable and drenched at one point..but glad i wore an adidas climate cool...dry in an instant when the sun was up.. :)
stacey and justin also come and try their hand at fishing..
on the whole, thank God for a good day of fishing. He is good.
My biggest catch for the day - a rabbit fish
A few good fish...enuf for dinner..
A huge sting ray - great for bbqing..haha
Huge ray..one day i must also try to catch one.. ;p
Monday, March 8, 2010
Constricted and constrained
When the welling of tears is no longer on the eyes but in the heart...you know there is a depth of sadness that would be only untold.
It is a second wave of stress. Earthquake aftershocks are usually milder than the first. I do not seem to have any stretch of rest. Its taking its toll and toil.
When perpetual stress and discontinuos stress seizures come, it is worse than having an epilethic fits...the convulsions will stop, but not this when tsunami after tsunami keep coming.
I think the message is clear.
These strivings must cease or there can't be deliverance except that of delirium.
I must stoop not lower, but to make a stand to trust that the brook cherith has dried, and it is compelling, in this constricted and constrained environment, God has wanted me to leave.
It is untenable. Not a matter of endurance. When sanity hangs a thread, I need to swing to know that beyond a greener pasture, lies the stiller water.
I need peace and a longer one. I must have this rest for a season.
Not words. But just rest.
This mind expects deliverance. This mind expects fulfillment. Almost all, joy to delight.
And only one in my Lord would suffice.
I must go.
It is a second wave of stress. Earthquake aftershocks are usually milder than the first. I do not seem to have any stretch of rest. Its taking its toll and toil.
When perpetual stress and discontinuos stress seizures come, it is worse than having an epilethic fits...the convulsions will stop, but not this when tsunami after tsunami keep coming.
I think the message is clear.
These strivings must cease or there can't be deliverance except that of delirium.
I must stoop not lower, but to make a stand to trust that the brook cherith has dried, and it is compelling, in this constricted and constrained environment, God has wanted me to leave.
It is untenable. Not a matter of endurance. When sanity hangs a thread, I need to swing to know that beyond a greener pasture, lies the stiller water.
I need peace and a longer one. I must have this rest for a season.
Not words. But just rest.
This mind expects deliverance. This mind expects fulfillment. Almost all, joy to delight.
And only one in my Lord would suffice.
I must go.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Fishing
finally, after years of withdrawal..a bumper catch..not too bad with 4 hrs of work...
oh tamban..u never left.. :p
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Alas
And so did Christ die in vain?
With bated breath and reflections a trough deeper, the thoughts that tenders in images of grace untold, puts me to shame that I haven't press for a life that is more consistently testfying the glory of my Lord.
I bade to say goodbye to self desires but yet it bade me not.
This verse I encountered today gave a cry, " But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. " 2 Cor 4:7
I say I cannot hide. Oh where is this heart beating unlesss a life story told that Christ is the treasure of my life.
Why live for self where there are glories of Christ still to be told?
With bated breath and reflections a trough deeper, the thoughts that tenders in images of grace untold, puts me to shame that I haven't press for a life that is more consistently testfying the glory of my Lord.
I bade to say goodbye to self desires but yet it bade me not.
This verse I encountered today gave a cry, " But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. " 2 Cor 4:7
I say I cannot hide. Oh where is this heart beating unlesss a life story told that Christ is the treasure of my life.
Why live for self where there are glories of Christ still to be told?
Romans
The just shall live by faith.
What a verse of simplicity and beauty. Assault this verse with sin and it beautifully echoes, the just shall live by faith. Try telling it about righteousness deeds for justification, and it smoother the thought away and rings again, the just shall live by faith.
This verse stays and echos.
Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words abide forever.
The just shall live by faith.
What a verse of simplicity and beauty. Assault this verse with sin and it beautifully echoes, the just shall live by faith. Try telling it about righteousness deeds for justification, and it smoother the thought away and rings again, the just shall live by faith.
This verse stays and echos.
Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words abide forever.
The just shall live by faith.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Is Godliness the exception and not the norm?
I think this is a good question. Coz if I may answer it, the answer to me is obvious.
Perhaps it gets clearer if I read the OT. How much of Israel history do we see faithfulness and revival?
Few.
How about the NT church age? I can say that Paul has epistles after epistles correcting errors. And Christ brings charges to the 7 churches in Asia of their errors?
I say Godliness of man comes with 2 right perspective of God. Fear of God and the grace of God.
Let me talk about fear.
I conclude that the fear of the Lord is almost non-existant in Christianity today when our attention is warped towards love and grace. In Luke 12, Jesus confronts the religious gurus of His day, the scribes and Pharisees. No doubt they wield great power and influence, Jesus pointed say to the thousands that are gathered on the real fear man must have. It is not towards man. He says to the masses, "Fear Him who is able to destroy both body and soul!"
Jesus pointed brings us what we all lack. The lack of fear for God. The fear for men is natural and its constantly a snare.
Every wonder why none of us pursue holiness and thirst for righteousness? The lack of fear, a reverence for Jehovah God.
How about grace?
John Piper says he approves of 2 man in the bible. Saul (Paul) approved Stephen of his stoning. Both are examples of grace. Stephen displayed courage to speak for God and hence stoned. Saul displayed murderous zeal and was converted by Jesus on the road of Dasmascus displayed God's deliverance of his murderous ways to become the most effective minister of the NT ever. Paul showed grace. Grace that God can transform any man to fear Him as a mark of grace.
I don't want to put fear in a negative light. Hence I want to describe that Stephen being bold fears God. Paul being bold fears God. They fear that they do not demonstrate what the grace of God has given to them that they live a life that demonstrates bestowed divine grace.
I shudder to think that if a person sees grace and not sees fear. The absence of one or the other brings licentiousness to sin as Jude writes in his short epistle. Fear without grace stops us from doing anything for God. Grace without fear stops us from doing anything "right" for God. Taken together they are important. What moves you?
I hope we see fear and grace together. I hope fear drives you from sin. To live holiness and righteousness and grace drives you to sinners to tell them of the fear of God and the grace that is available.
Is Godliness the exception and not the norm. Yes it is. Coz not many see fear and grace together.
I hope you do.
Perhaps it gets clearer if I read the OT. How much of Israel history do we see faithfulness and revival?
Few.
How about the NT church age? I can say that Paul has epistles after epistles correcting errors. And Christ brings charges to the 7 churches in Asia of their errors?
I say Godliness of man comes with 2 right perspective of God. Fear of God and the grace of God.
Let me talk about fear.
I conclude that the fear of the Lord is almost non-existant in Christianity today when our attention is warped towards love and grace. In Luke 12, Jesus confronts the religious gurus of His day, the scribes and Pharisees. No doubt they wield great power and influence, Jesus pointed say to the thousands that are gathered on the real fear man must have. It is not towards man. He says to the masses, "Fear Him who is able to destroy both body and soul!"
Jesus pointed brings us what we all lack. The lack of fear for God. The fear for men is natural and its constantly a snare.
Every wonder why none of us pursue holiness and thirst for righteousness? The lack of fear, a reverence for Jehovah God.
How about grace?
John Piper says he approves of 2 man in the bible. Saul (Paul) approved Stephen of his stoning. Both are examples of grace. Stephen displayed courage to speak for God and hence stoned. Saul displayed murderous zeal and was converted by Jesus on the road of Dasmascus displayed God's deliverance of his murderous ways to become the most effective minister of the NT ever. Paul showed grace. Grace that God can transform any man to fear Him as a mark of grace.
I don't want to put fear in a negative light. Hence I want to describe that Stephen being bold fears God. Paul being bold fears God. They fear that they do not demonstrate what the grace of God has given to them that they live a life that demonstrates bestowed divine grace.
I shudder to think that if a person sees grace and not sees fear. The absence of one or the other brings licentiousness to sin as Jude writes in his short epistle. Fear without grace stops us from doing anything for God. Grace without fear stops us from doing anything "right" for God. Taken together they are important. What moves you?
I hope we see fear and grace together. I hope fear drives you from sin. To live holiness and righteousness and grace drives you to sinners to tell them of the fear of God and the grace that is available.
Is Godliness the exception and not the norm. Yes it is. Coz not many see fear and grace together.
I hope you do.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Response
You have trodden underfoot the gospel of grace.
Do not step on grace coz it is grave.. And this where most of us have done that.
Alas, the fear of man brings a snare, but without the fear of God, it brings a snap to your walk with God.
Yesterday, someone asked me a question that if you have the fear of God, what do you gain?
You gain to fear nothing else.
A higher fear overcomes a lesser fear.
Do not tread on grace, it too will bring a snare and a snap.
Do not step on grace coz it is grave.. And this where most of us have done that.
Alas, the fear of man brings a snare, but without the fear of God, it brings a snap to your walk with God.
Yesterday, someone asked me a question that if you have the fear of God, what do you gain?
You gain to fear nothing else.
A higher fear overcomes a lesser fear.
Do not tread on grace, it too will bring a snare and a snap.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Who cause the baby to cry?
Who cause the baby to cry?
Life is a journey. And the mind is its compass.
Whatever we want to think, it can direct us to think a certain way.
Well, sometimes correctly, sometimes wrongly.
At the end of it, it is not the right or wrong we think. Imagination of the mind is powerful yet it lacks.
Yet the true way to discount this fallacy is to seek obedience. The hardness yet the surest thing to still do right.
But man's heart is weak. And it is only and only by God's grace that we are kept. A fragile man and a gracious God.
Who cause the baby to cry?
Dun place bets on our thinking but seek God for that grace to do right.
It is true. God's grace is sufficient. Lean on that.
Life is a journey. And the mind is its compass.
Whatever we want to think, it can direct us to think a certain way.
Well, sometimes correctly, sometimes wrongly.
At the end of it, it is not the right or wrong we think. Imagination of the mind is powerful yet it lacks.
Yet the true way to discount this fallacy is to seek obedience. The hardness yet the surest thing to still do right.
But man's heart is weak. And it is only and only by God's grace that we are kept. A fragile man and a gracious God.
Who cause the baby to cry?
Dun place bets on our thinking but seek God for that grace to do right.
It is true. God's grace is sufficient. Lean on that.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Too old for good
Some people says that being old is gold. Maybe I beg to differ.
But I wonder as well.
Does being old mean you are more adverse to failure rather than trying? Some say when one is young, you get adventurous and you try, not afraid of failure.
Perhaps I feel the stakes too high to try?
But time is exhausting itself, isn't it?
I wonder how long before I can reconcile everything I am thinking? Why not put in a shot down the alley and see what is the outcome.
Rather than not rolling the bowling ball down the alley and have no pins being struck? Even if it hits the gutter, at least you know and you learn.
Haha, easier said than done.
And being older as I said this.
Hmm..
But I wonder as well.
Does being old mean you are more adverse to failure rather than trying? Some say when one is young, you get adventurous and you try, not afraid of failure.
Perhaps I feel the stakes too high to try?
But time is exhausting itself, isn't it?
I wonder how long before I can reconcile everything I am thinking? Why not put in a shot down the alley and see what is the outcome.
Rather than not rolling the bowling ball down the alley and have no pins being struck? Even if it hits the gutter, at least you know and you learn.
Haha, easier said than done.
And being older as I said this.
Hmm..
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
O Church Arise
I think this is a marvelously written hymn by Stuart Townsend and Keith Getty. There are the authors for "In Christ Alone". And truly this is another master piece.
Have been fretted by some thoughts as I poured through the bible and this song comes so aptly. In the age of differing opinions and self-taught mentality, it is refreshing that a song written in this age to be so biblical in its lyrics.
The church as Paul tells Timothy to remember must be the pillar of truth that is to be the heart of worship. Forget about sentimentality and emotionalism that drives worship. Truth alone in worship bring out a sanctified emotion which is acceptable to God. Paul says in Col 3:16 " to let the words of Christ dwell richly...in psalms and spiritual song" And the richness of this song in displaying the richness of our standing in Christ, the church standing in Christ..just brings out the display of His glory. Truth encourages. Worship is in truth and in spirit.
This song has done both.
Would like to introduce this song to campus one day :)
O church, arise and put your armor on;
Hear the call of Christ our captain;
For now the weak can say that they are strong
In the strength that God has given.
With shield of faith and belt of truth
We’ll stand against the devil’s lies;
An army bold whose battle cry is “Love!”
Reaching out to those in darkness.
Our call to war, to love the captive soul,
But to rage against the captor;
And with the sword that makes the wounded whole
We will fight with faith and valor.
When faced with trials on ev’ry side,
We know the outcome is secure,
And Christ will have the prize for which He died—
An inheritance of nations.
Come, see the cross where love and mercy meet,
As the Son of God is stricken;
Then see His foes lie crushed beneath His feet,
For the Conqueror has risen!
And as the stone is rolled away,
And Christ emerges from the grave,
This vict’ry march continues till the day
Ev’ry eye and heart shall see Him.
So Spirit, come, put strength in ev’ry stride,
Give grace for ev’ry hurdle,
That we may run with faith to win the prize
Of a servant good and faithful.
As saints of old still line the way,
Retelling triumphs of His grace,
We hear their calls and hunger for the day
When, with Christ, we stand in glory.
Words and Music by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend
Copyright © 2005 Thankyou Music
Have been fretted by some thoughts as I poured through the bible and this song comes so aptly. In the age of differing opinions and self-taught mentality, it is refreshing that a song written in this age to be so biblical in its lyrics.
The church as Paul tells Timothy to remember must be the pillar of truth that is to be the heart of worship. Forget about sentimentality and emotionalism that drives worship. Truth alone in worship bring out a sanctified emotion which is acceptable to God. Paul says in Col 3:16 " to let the words of Christ dwell richly...in psalms and spiritual song" And the richness of this song in displaying the richness of our standing in Christ, the church standing in Christ..just brings out the display of His glory. Truth encourages. Worship is in truth and in spirit.
This song has done both.
Would like to introduce this song to campus one day :)
O church, arise and put your armor on;
Hear the call of Christ our captain;
For now the weak can say that they are strong
In the strength that God has given.
With shield of faith and belt of truth
We’ll stand against the devil’s lies;
An army bold whose battle cry is “Love!”
Reaching out to those in darkness.
Our call to war, to love the captive soul,
But to rage against the captor;
And with the sword that makes the wounded whole
We will fight with faith and valor.
When faced with trials on ev’ry side,
We know the outcome is secure,
And Christ will have the prize for which He died—
An inheritance of nations.
Come, see the cross where love and mercy meet,
As the Son of God is stricken;
Then see His foes lie crushed beneath His feet,
For the Conqueror has risen!
And as the stone is rolled away,
And Christ emerges from the grave,
This vict’ry march continues till the day
Ev’ry eye and heart shall see Him.
So Spirit, come, put strength in ev’ry stride,
Give grace for ev’ry hurdle,
That we may run with faith to win the prize
Of a servant good and faithful.
As saints of old still line the way,
Retelling triumphs of His grace,
We hear their calls and hunger for the day
When, with Christ, we stand in glory.
Words and Music by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend
Copyright © 2005 Thankyou Music
Saturday, February 13, 2010
A new song
The Passion of Christ sure left a lot of images in my head. Yes it is ugly. Sin is ugly. Dying for sin is ugly. Suffering in the hands of sinful men is ugly. The cross, the crucification is ugly.
Till Sunday morning came, and the stone was rolled away. The crucified Christ was risen. What a joy that morning must be.
And the soul must arise to sing praise for Christ is risen.
It is with such an image that I pen this song, "Arise" Hope our soul will be reminded if death would not sting Christ, He being the firstfruits, the firstborn for all of us will also not taste death when our time come.
Take joy in that :)
Till Sunday morning came, and the stone was rolled away. The crucified Christ was risen. What a joy that morning must be.
And the soul must arise to sing praise for Christ is risen.
It is with such an image that I pen this song, "Arise" Hope our soul will be reminded if death would not sting Christ, He being the firstfruits, the firstborn for all of us will also not taste death when our time come.
Take joy in that :)
Monday, February 8, 2010
What is in the head?
3 A man's own folly ruins his life, yet his heart rages against the LORD. Proverbs 19:3
I dunno what could be worst than to think wrongly all about God and yet have a rage against the Lord
I dunno what could be worst than to think we can cheat sin and believe that God doesn't know even that little one.
I dunno what could be worst than to continue in sin and believe that we are saved no matter what.
We are man, made of unredeemed flesh. Our carnal nature.
There could be only fear in the presence of this great enemy, our sure defense cannot be in of ourselves.
The weakness of our warfare towards principlalites, rulers and dominion of this world. How weak we are.
The assaults of life are tremendous. I do feel miserable at times Sometimes I again felt helpness.
The days have fleeted by. The hours are long gone. When I long at the horizon, the word deliverance seeming look more and more distance As the Psalmist puts in 121:1 "Whence would my help come?"
Sometimes we feel lost and naturally so. I feel likewise. In the struggle against sin, against the sense of aimlessness and lostness, you feel you want the ultimate desire to be happy. It is just so natural.
Yet there is that waiting. What fills my head is important coz a wrong think could set my heart in a rage against God.
I dunno why that happens but it had.
If only repentance could come easy and stay easy, it wouldn't be a warfare.
I must keep my mind pure and have hope for He who has this hope purifies himself.
I can't think anything worst to have what in the head that set your heart raging against the Lord.
I really dunno.
I dunno what could be worst than to think wrongly all about God and yet have a rage against the Lord
I dunno what could be worst than to think we can cheat sin and believe that God doesn't know even that little one.
I dunno what could be worst than to continue in sin and believe that we are saved no matter what.
We are man, made of unredeemed flesh. Our carnal nature.
There could be only fear in the presence of this great enemy, our sure defense cannot be in of ourselves.
The weakness of our warfare towards principlalites, rulers and dominion of this world. How weak we are.
The assaults of life are tremendous. I do feel miserable at times Sometimes I again felt helpness.
The days have fleeted by. The hours are long gone. When I long at the horizon, the word deliverance seeming look more and more distance As the Psalmist puts in 121:1 "Whence would my help come?"
Sometimes we feel lost and naturally so. I feel likewise. In the struggle against sin, against the sense of aimlessness and lostness, you feel you want the ultimate desire to be happy. It is just so natural.
Yet there is that waiting. What fills my head is important coz a wrong think could set my heart in a rage against God.
I dunno why that happens but it had.
If only repentance could come easy and stay easy, it wouldn't be a warfare.
I must keep my mind pure and have hope for He who has this hope purifies himself.
I can't think anything worst to have what in the head that set your heart raging against the Lord.
I really dunno.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Fleeting
34 and still counting. Hmm...
38 and still growing. Leaning..
U have to make things happen. I was told.
Yup I have to make things happen.
Pray.
Life seems fleeting but prayers sends the fleet of cries to God who sends
His fleet of help to your side.
What more could I ask. Psalms 121:1-2 reads, "I will lift my eyes to the hills from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth."
If God made this dominion, be sure He can dominates all of life's circumstances.
The apostles learn this lesson, for in temptous wind, they were sore afraid, when Jesus rebuke the winds and it went ....peaceful.
Toss? No. Turn. Yes. To Jesus.
38 and still growing. Leaning..
U have to make things happen. I was told.
Yup I have to make things happen.
Pray.
Life seems fleeting but prayers sends the fleet of cries to God who sends
His fleet of help to your side.
What more could I ask. Psalms 121:1-2 reads, "I will lift my eyes to the hills from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth."
If God made this dominion, be sure He can dominates all of life's circumstances.
The apostles learn this lesson, for in temptous wind, they were sore afraid, when Jesus rebuke the winds and it went ....peaceful.
Toss? No. Turn. Yes. To Jesus.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Truth
it has been a long time...still the end is not yet.
well, i am casting that aside at least for now..been thinking of some other things and deeply perturbed.
Jude 1:3a..contend earnestly for the faith...recently i came across something that it is so monumental, and I feel that God has shown me beyond any doubt that this is the truth.
I heard a sermon by John MacArthur who says this,"be a student of the bible and laid down convictions..from there onwards you will develop affections."
How true. Jesus said these remarkable words when He saw the temple turning into a den of thieves and said,"the zeal of thy house has eaten me up."
How I wish I have such affection for God that I can see truth and boldy declare truth without the fear that I offend man.
I need grace, much needed grace.
Truth must stand tall. Fads and trends come and go. The infallible Word of God has always stood the test of time because God has never change, neither His Word will. Jesus said rightly,"Heaven and earth will pass away but the Word of God abides forever."
Amen.
well, i am casting that aside at least for now..been thinking of some other things and deeply perturbed.
Jude 1:3a..contend earnestly for the faith...recently i came across something that it is so monumental, and I feel that God has shown me beyond any doubt that this is the truth.
I heard a sermon by John MacArthur who says this,"be a student of the bible and laid down convictions..from there onwards you will develop affections."
How true. Jesus said these remarkable words when He saw the temple turning into a den of thieves and said,"the zeal of thy house has eaten me up."
How I wish I have such affection for God that I can see truth and boldy declare truth without the fear that I offend man.
I need grace, much needed grace.
Truth must stand tall. Fads and trends come and go. The infallible Word of God has always stood the test of time because God has never change, neither His Word will. Jesus said rightly,"Heaven and earth will pass away but the Word of God abides forever."
Amen.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
A Living Sacrifice
I have bought "Passion of the Chirst" DVD in US a few years back. Never had the courage to watch coz heard it is gruesome. Especially this one is uncensored.
But last night, I didnt know why I just couldn't sleep. I saw the DVD, still unwrapped...and decided to watch it..been 5 years..
So I did..and lo..it is so heartwrenching...I know Christ suffered more..this movie even though well-made can never never show the full extent of Christ's suffering..Scripture description is full beyond the fabric of human comprehension of His suffering.
But as I look a tthe images of suffering..it is indeed heart stopping. To suffer in the hands of sinful men cannot weigh any heavier than to bear the weight of sins that God has poured His wrath on Him.
The ending of the movie is beautiful, almost serene. The resurrection of the GLORIFIED CHRIST.
After watching the movie..I penned some thoughts...and it slowly it became a song..I titled it "A Living Sacrifice". Coz really seeing what Christ has done..why shd I live for self and not for Him. The ugliness of sin bring His death, then what must be a beautiful life, it must be living for His righteouness.
A Living Sacrifice
When I gaze upon the crucified Christ
Could I coldly look and not know
The anguish He bore for me
Was not for my sins
Then why does He had to die?
Chorus
Christ the lamb of God, the perfect sacrifice
Heaven paid the price with His blood
Christ has laid His Life
Shouldn’t I give to Him
All my life, a living sacrifice.
The veil was torn away, with the Savior in my heart
I was blind but now I see
The joy was set before Him
He’as ran the race before us
Leading us by His faithfulness
But last night, I didnt know why I just couldn't sleep. I saw the DVD, still unwrapped...and decided to watch it..been 5 years..
So I did..and lo..it is so heartwrenching...I know Christ suffered more..this movie even though well-made can never never show the full extent of Christ's suffering..Scripture description is full beyond the fabric of human comprehension of His suffering.
But as I look a tthe images of suffering..it is indeed heart stopping. To suffer in the hands of sinful men cannot weigh any heavier than to bear the weight of sins that God has poured His wrath on Him.
The ending of the movie is beautiful, almost serene. The resurrection of the GLORIFIED CHRIST.
After watching the movie..I penned some thoughts...and it slowly it became a song..I titled it "A Living Sacrifice". Coz really seeing what Christ has done..why shd I live for self and not for Him. The ugliness of sin bring His death, then what must be a beautiful life, it must be living for His righteouness.
A Living Sacrifice
When I gaze upon the crucified Christ
Could I coldly look and not know
The anguish He bore for me
Was not for my sins
Then why does He had to die?
Chorus
Christ the lamb of God, the perfect sacrifice
Heaven paid the price with His blood
Christ has laid His Life
Shouldn’t I give to Him
All my life, a living sacrifice.
The veil was torn away, with the Savior in my heart
I was blind but now I see
The joy was set before Him
He’as ran the race before us
Leading us by His faithfulness
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Keep Fighting
1 Timothy 1:18
Timothy, my son, I give you this instruction in keeping with the prophecies once made about you, so that by following them you may fight the good fight,
1 Timothy 6:12
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.
2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
1st - I want to speak of this fight.
It is amazing the work that Paul does to the life of Timothy. Simply telling him to keep fighting. All of us face moments of discouragement. Timothy, as Paul says, my true son in the faith also faces discouragement but he tells Tim one truth, keep fighting, keep enduring, keep doing right, live out your life to the max, son, keep fighting coz fighting the faith is all that is worth it.
You have taken hold of eternal life. Fighting the fight of faith is the best fight ever. Fights often leave a person bruised, wounded, hurt and in agony. I believe the Christian fight is the same. Yet Paul rightly points out to Tim, you have taken hold of eternal life therefore you can fight. You have taken something that is abidding and eternal. So fight knowing you are never a loser. Great encouragement.
2nd - I want to speak of a fight that is unworthy.
Paul tells Tim to fight a specific fight. The fight of faith. Tim did it. Tim perservere. Tim didnt give in . Sounds like Jesus fight with the devil. The temptations. He never yield nore waiver. And lay before Him is the crown of life.
Do we see this as a fight that is worth it? I sometimes think most of us fight not in the arena of faith but in the arena of fame, of wealth, of the world while the devil hints his temptation without a fight. We don't take flight, neither fight but soon find that we fight for fame, wealth and things of the world and not the fight of faith. The things of the world never profits the soul. This is a fight that is unworthy.
3rd - I want to speak of a fight that is worthy.
I see Paul sums it best. Eternity is a beautiful resting place.
I often hear of Christians saying that they God has called them to a place of work. And I see ugliness in the way they does thing. This is not fight of faith, this is a fight of fame. Misuse of God's calling.
The beauty of fighting the faith comes with the beauty of the rest that you believe in. Faith sees when the breadth of life is taken away. Rather than breathe the sorrow and bitterness of the world, why not breathe the given grace of life and see life's journey as the path to that beautiful rest. So fight. Paul says that with many tribulations, we must strive to enter the kingdom.
So I speak of this fight that is worthy that apostles and saints of old have spoken and leave their mark. Their graves are not decorated with precious stones. But their honor is they depart into the glories of Christ whom they love so endearly.
So is this reward that we fight for.
Timothy, my son, I give you this instruction in keeping with the prophecies once made about you, so that by following them you may fight the good fight,
1 Timothy 6:12
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.
2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
1st - I want to speak of this fight.
It is amazing the work that Paul does to the life of Timothy. Simply telling him to keep fighting. All of us face moments of discouragement. Timothy, as Paul says, my true son in the faith also faces discouragement but he tells Tim one truth, keep fighting, keep enduring, keep doing right, live out your life to the max, son, keep fighting coz fighting the faith is all that is worth it.
You have taken hold of eternal life. Fighting the fight of faith is the best fight ever. Fights often leave a person bruised, wounded, hurt and in agony. I believe the Christian fight is the same. Yet Paul rightly points out to Tim, you have taken hold of eternal life therefore you can fight. You have taken something that is abidding and eternal. So fight knowing you are never a loser. Great encouragement.
2nd - I want to speak of a fight that is unworthy.
Paul tells Tim to fight a specific fight. The fight of faith. Tim did it. Tim perservere. Tim didnt give in . Sounds like Jesus fight with the devil. The temptations. He never yield nore waiver. And lay before Him is the crown of life.
Do we see this as a fight that is worth it? I sometimes think most of us fight not in the arena of faith but in the arena of fame, of wealth, of the world while the devil hints his temptation without a fight. We don't take flight, neither fight but soon find that we fight for fame, wealth and things of the world and not the fight of faith. The things of the world never profits the soul. This is a fight that is unworthy.
3rd - I want to speak of a fight that is worthy.
I see Paul sums it best. Eternity is a beautiful resting place.
I often hear of Christians saying that they God has called them to a place of work. And I see ugliness in the way they does thing. This is not fight of faith, this is a fight of fame. Misuse of God's calling.
The beauty of fighting the faith comes with the beauty of the rest that you believe in. Faith sees when the breadth of life is taken away. Rather than breathe the sorrow and bitterness of the world, why not breathe the given grace of life and see life's journey as the path to that beautiful rest. So fight. Paul says that with many tribulations, we must strive to enter the kingdom.
So I speak of this fight that is worthy that apostles and saints of old have spoken and leave their mark. Their graves are not decorated with precious stones. But their honor is they depart into the glories of Christ whom they love so endearly.
So is this reward that we fight for.
Monday, January 4, 2010
But I haven't been to the other side
It is shocking each time I hear of someone passing away abruptly. I speak of one such young man. He passed away suddenly.
I went to his blog..read a fair bit. He is a young man full of aspirations and ideals.
Yet life was snuffed out of him quickly and suddenly.
All of us makes plans and proposals.
All of us have heartaches and difficulties in life.
Is it true that it is more pleasant living than not to?
Some people says life is beautiful. Some will beg to differ.
Some will say I haven't been to the other side.
I read a comment on someone's blog on the demise of the person. "Lucky him, he is in a better place."
If one is going through hardships, that thought of relieve is a relief.
However, I do realise...The cause for living is not to escape that escape is not living either.
The meaning of life cannot be here and now, this present moment or else the meaning of suffering cease. And if living has no meaning, then suffering has no meaning either.
Eternity beyond has a more purposeful end than living. Coz living will end. Eternity willl not. Live for eternity has meaning and suffering then has meaning.
The heart that is set on eternity lives for eternity.
Do I make sense?
A penny for thought I suppose.
I went to his blog..read a fair bit. He is a young man full of aspirations and ideals.
Yet life was snuffed out of him quickly and suddenly.
All of us makes plans and proposals.
All of us have heartaches and difficulties in life.
Is it true that it is more pleasant living than not to?
Some people says life is beautiful. Some will beg to differ.
Some will say I haven't been to the other side.
I read a comment on someone's blog on the demise of the person. "Lucky him, he is in a better place."
If one is going through hardships, that thought of relieve is a relief.
However, I do realise...The cause for living is not to escape that escape is not living either.
The meaning of life cannot be here and now, this present moment or else the meaning of suffering cease. And if living has no meaning, then suffering has no meaning either.
Eternity beyond has a more purposeful end than living. Coz living will end. Eternity willl not. Live for eternity has meaning and suffering then has meaning.
The heart that is set on eternity lives for eternity.
Do I make sense?
A penny for thought I suppose.
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